Watched her latest vlog and there’s something so sad, very about this woman.
She’s painfully insecure, lost and uncomfortable in her skin. But rather than use the much needed time alone to sit and do inner work — she manically spins around on camera talking a mile a minute about health while having no real idea what she’s talking about and contradicting the words coming out of her mouth with the ingredients she’s piling into bowls.
As a human being — it made me sad watching this other human being try to fill a day alone, running away from whatever deep—seeded negative thoughts are in her mind and filming it all.
She tries and wants so HARD to be something… that I can’t quite put my finger on… but never reaches it.
Obviously she needs severe therapy but like an addict… won’t till she hits rock bottom or has some other kind of wake-up call. But it’ll be hard to reach that point because she cuts off ANY one who tries to point ANYthing out to her that she labels immediately as “hate” and finds it so very hard to relax, settle into her skin and examine who she is.
I sincerely hope for her wellbeing that she finds her way but as she is — she’s going to continue that cycle of highs then crashing lows she even acknowledged.
And insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, right? Well that’s her. Spinning on a hamster wheel like a fragile, insecure and lost human.