Ruby: "Hallo, moiy nyame's Ryoobee and oiy hyope tyoo bee ayy wroytah someday..."
Also Ruby:
What Ruby means to say is: "Oiy hyope tyoo gat ayy HYOOOJ book deal from a MAJOR POBLISHA and gat LYOTS AND LYOTS OF MONEE fwore VARRY LITTLE WAHRK."
Same energy:
After lurching around "AMMILLY DICKINSUN'S BADRYOOM" in her too-large clomping school shoes, her arms bolted to her sides like she's expecting a bear to crash through the window and maul her if she makes any sudden moves, a fake smile on her face the whole time, she starts yammering about how emotional an experience this was.
"HONNASTLEEE, oiy cwould feel this TANGIBLE PRASSANCE when oiy whwalked in."
Whenever Ruby says "HONNASTLEE", "JANUINELY", "OIY PROMISE YOO" or "OIY'M NOT LOIYING WHAN OIY SAY...", it's a given that she's lying. And if that weren't enough...
While she's claiming that she "HONASTLEEE" had a "STRWONG", "INTANNSE" emotional experience walking into AMMILLY DICKINSUN'S room, she breaks out the poker tell one-eyed squint she does whenever she's making shit up.
Then she follows it up by showing herself awkwardly standing around, with a look of "...and now what?" bored bewilderment on her face, like she's wondering what she's supposed to be doing or why she's even there. Such an "INTANNSE ACKSPERIENCE"!
And then she starts heavily implying that the ghost of AMMILLY DICKINSUN possessed her and she acted as a spiritual conduit for AMMILLY'S writing...
"OIY rilly wanted to DYOO the koiynds of wroiting that AMMILLY DICKINSUN was myost...PARTIAL TYOO? Which is OFFCWOARSE pyoetry AND LATTERS. Syo oiy started off boiy wroiting somm pyoetreeee... and...OIY WAS acksually RILLY SUPPROISED boiy WHAT OIY WRYOTE! It anded up being VARRY MOCH in the DICKENSUN STOIYLE...syo oiy used DASHES and FRAGMENTS and HWALF-ROIYMES...oiy alsyo found moiysalf slipping intyo a koind of...semi-hymnic rhythm, which is wot...she tanded to yoose?"
Ruby interrupts herself and put on her sceptic hat for a second for an artificially sped-up, manic ramble:
"I think mwost loikelee this is becoss oiy--KAPT ON THINKING--of--SPECIFICKLOINESFROMPOETRYAMRECOITINGTHOSE--to moisalf? It'sprobablynotthatsupproising."
She says "most likely", leaving the door open for other, more ghostly explanations, when she knows exactly why she wrote what she wrote.
In reality, Ruby intentionally went in there to write like Emily Dickinson, because all she does is try to emulate other writers and books since she has no passion, talent or interest in writing of her own. She did not spiritually channel the ghost of Emily Dickinson, nor was this an emotional, magical bit of universal wonderment. It was Ruby faking an interest in shit again and playing make-believe.
She spent the whole session bored and distracted, with more time spent staring into space or angrily glaring at the camera than anything else:
She also included footage of herself aggressively wiping her nose on her hand, then proceeding to touch stuff in Emily Dickinson's room:
BOHT SHE'S SOCH A JARMAPHYOBE!
This is why you should be paying attention in editing, Ruby.
Ruby announces she's going to read us some of this ripped-off poetry, "even though it's nyot varry gud".
Now
that should've been the title for this video, Ruby: "I wrote a poem and it's not very good." In fact, just name them all that if you insist on shoving bad poems about the weather and seagulls in everything.
"How moch, oiy wondah--
of a myoment is creeyated?
Crawwfted from grawwfts and imprashuns--
sonlit revisions?
the schoolyard bell--
sat down
with pancil byookays
and yallow wahlpyaper
told to WROITE--
to craft--and create a moment
from fyigments and filaments
BARNT BLACK as Titania's hahr.
Told to cryeate a myoment
to capcha it farmly
"TARN OSS FROM DOST INTO AHHR"
to breathe loife intyo graphoite
and back agann."
Ruby writes some meandering drivel about being frustratedly forced to write in a school setting when she gets the opportunity to write in Emily Dickenson's bedroom, because that definitely helps make it look like she enjoyed herself... The irony of her apparently lamenting how much of life's moments are crafted when she travelled across the world to put on an unconvincing performance on a fake "pilgrimage" based on a completely fabricated love of writing and reading is seemingly lost on her.
She shows another poem and it's just more stilted, repetitive crap about the weather right in front of her. Big shocker.
She rambles about "LATTER-WROYTING ATTI-KET" for a while. She says how AMMILY wouldn't worry about etiquette when writing and would just write naturally and include whatever errors happened.
Then Ruby decides she's not going to just strip away all her Victorian nonsense and write a letter some someone like a normal human being. Instead going to intentionally going to rip up some already torn scrap paper to write a letter on.
Instead of just writing what she wants on the paper she has, like Emily would have, Ruby intentionally creates some weird, fake process of bullshittery. She describes this as freeing because "it eliminyates PERFACKSIONISM" and "the need fahr it tyo bee PAARFACT" (a problem that Ruby has never actually had, considering everything she does is utterly incompetent and full of lazy errors). It doesn't seem freeing or natural. It's just another fake, adopted affectation.
Same energy:
She shows herself scribbling more forced poetry. She insists on using outdated language like "o'er" to try to directly associate herself with and rip off dead poets rather than just writing for herself and writing naturally.
But this is what happens when you have no interest in writing, no talent for it and no passion for it: You just copy other people who've been successful in the past, hoping that'll be a shortcut to the success they had.
She rambles some more about how profound the AMMILLY DICKINSUN WROYTING ACKSPERIENCE was, and claims that being in AMMILLY'S BADRYOOM supercharged her senses and situational awareness.
"Oiy found moiysalf being hoiper-attantive and hoiper-awaahr of the thingsaround me? ...It was loiyke moiy SANSES...wahhr...in...YOHVERDROIVE...and...umm...YAH, it was rilly qwool."
Yeah, that checks out...
She caps it off by mangling a few lines from an AMMILLY DICKINSUN poem in her fake Emma Watson accent and then offering up the writing tips she learned.
1. WROYTE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NOIGHT OR WHAN IT'S SOYLENT.
2. WROYTE ON A VARRY SMALL DASK WHAHHR THAHRR IS NYO CLOTTA.
3. WROYTE WHAAR YOU CAN SEE THE NATURAL WAHHRLD.
4. HANG UP PITCHERS OF YORE FAVOURITE AWWTHORS TYO INSPOIRE YOO.
5. WROYTE ON SCRAPS OF PAPAH AND AWLMYOST DEFACE THE PAPAH BEFWORE YOO WROYTE ON IT.
Ruby suggests writing on scrap paper and screwing it up before using it to "eliminate perfectionism". It's utter, superficial nonsense. Writing on bits of scrap paper won't be too helpful if you're writing anything but a shopping list. If you want to eliminate perfectionism, don't worry about how the paper looks, worry about what you're focusing on with your
actual writing. Maybe don't write on actual paper and instead use a laptop where you can edit easier and more conveniently. You don't need to see greenery and hedge mazes at all times in order to write.
It's almost complete nonsense, and even more sign that Ruby had no interest in writing and doesn't approach it from a standpoint of enjoying it and finding a method that actually works for her. It's just another fake interest where she keeps adopting performative traits that aren't universally helpful or conducive to it.
Some people love to exaggerate. I should have read your comments 1st...
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the disrespect