I got over ranty last night, definitely an overload of JM and my own stuff. Tearful this morning after a pointless, no-win battle over breakfast carb choices
. Really annoyed with myself for disappearing down the vortex of chaos and actually letting it get to me. Triggered by her pics and I'm usually way more level headed with all that is diet/thin culture. Numbers are a definite no go but I'm usually more meh with pics cos i know how they can be manipulated. Whoever said it must be exhausting being Jack is spot on.... I can't even begin to imagine that level of brain activity
. My brain is definitely being an arse today. One of those woe-is-me whiny days but I know I can't have a day off cos my nemesis is poised waiting for me to f*ck up and chances of me doing this recovery thing again, I mean even Ladbrokes would struggle to set any odds
so gotta quieten the naysayer in my head, pull on my non-grayng-fraying big girl pants, give myself a hug, think encouraging n kindly thoughts, pick myself up and move on. I mean, I may have a lot going on but I have to be thankful I'm not living in the Monroe maelstrom.
There was another sassy response from yesterday so I briefly unblocked JM to see context... oh btw removing her from my twittersphere was such a good move
and this tweeter has stuck her head above parapet a few times in response to Jack. She is not a fan! This must be a block earning tweet tho and no one commented which I found surprising. The Jackolites have pounced for far less
. Mass deleting followed... that in itself must be so exhausting. Nicola McLean shred, shred, shred on Big Brother is Jack every day on Twitter. Now she knows we have ALL the receipts and because she failed so spectacularly in the four hours we held her hostage here, she's going to be extra insufferable. The dopamine high only lasts for so long and she really seemed to up her need yesterday... I haven't even started on her today
. Does she actually have a limit or is there a step that's even too far for her to venture into? But then, maybe something in her brain, post mass deletion, actually believes the nothing to see here, move along narrative. That's a LOT
my brain albeit especially irritating today, is an oasis of calm in comparison.