I’m baffled as to how she thinks what she does is ‘work’. I’m sorry but it’s not work and can in no way be compared to a 9-5. She was actually trying to say her ‘job’ is harder than a 9-5 which is fairly laughable
I wasn’t going to waste my own mental energy and comment, but then I read the comment from the poster above about crying in the shower so as not to burden her family and my blood is boiling. She has a victim mentality. Likely every single one us commenting on this thread in reaction to this video has a mental health issue and that’s why we’re here, as someone mentioned she is weaponizing mental health. She doesn’t understand the difference between being a rut/general unhappiness and severe depression/anxiety. I am hoping she is reading or does read this..
This is the reality of working in 9-5 job with depression looked like for me about a month ago when I was experiencing withdrawals from my third attempt at finding a medication that works for me that was actually making me feel worse..I work an office job, half remote now and I am never not logged on. My performance is judged by results so this is actually torture when I’m not doing as well.
I suffer from a chronic illness where I can be out for a week at a time sometimes with no warnings. I have no one to look after my work load due to my seniority. My “9-5” profession unfortunately does not glorify valiantly coming out on camera and declaring the state of my mental health, while I’d be offered support no doubt, I’d likely lose my autonomy and confidence from senior management.
Because of being out ill already at times, I have to go in put on “real”brave face so that I don’t get deemed incompetent in my ability. Last month went like this grace... I get home (or log off) from an exhausting day of what should be considered an acting job putting on my brave face.... and I throw my clothes on the floor (not into a laundry bin) go straight to bed, don’t make myself food or turn on the Tv because I don’t enjoy watching anything. I might order takeaway if I’m starving (I haven’t been able to face getting any shopping, I don’t have any freebies just laying around my house) I’d leave all my dishes, takeaway boxes, laundry and cleaning to pile up. Wake up the next morning, dig something out of my closet and slap some makeup on and go in and pretend everything is ok. All of my physical and mental energy is used on this, on the commute home I’m sitting there analyzing every social situation I was in that day and if anyone picked up on my incompetence to handle the stress of my clients on my own, or whether they dislike me, or if I offended them. Because I’m in the height of withdrawals from these drugs, I’d wake up with night sweats, soaking wet sheets and vivid dreams. This was one of the bad weeks I had over the last month. After trying 4 antidepressants over the last 2 years I still haven’t found what works. (Ive been suffering for over 10y) I’ve tried every non medical therapy under the sun, but in reality at most times am not even well enough to meditate, practice self care etc.
The flexibility your current job offers you Grace is actually a god send with your MH right now, you can choose when to record. You get a press drop in, great- record something on one of your good days, like the day you were in the Conrad. Save these and then upload during the week..you’re not obligated to post content but if you need to keep your feed constant for followers, just keep buying them or have Chris upload some of these videos you’ve banked during the good days...
after withdrawals I have to go through another period of 2 months of being drug free to reassess my actual depression levels (my old SSRI actually made me feel worse so I’ve no idea what that even looks like) before I decide to start a new one. All while keeping my 9-5 that often involves weeks like this to keep up.
Wanna switch for a few weeks?
has she ever done a 9-5 herself?!
), one leading to an 8 week inpatient stay in Pat's, I can honestly say when I was at rock bottom, I could barely manage to keep my eyes open from the pain. The other time I became so dehydrated from crying, i had to be hospitalised in a general hospital and given IV fluids and valium to calm my crying. 3 days of 24 hour crying. Not so fun 
