I don't feel brave at the moment, feel like an awful mum, scared for the future for us.
Your support means a lot x
I don't think she has helped anyone either to be honest, certainly not in a DV relationship, any help she's offered (anyone) has resulted in her benefiting somehow, otherwise she has little or no interest.
I've got help this time, I hope anyone else who reaches out to her and is subsequently ignored is as lucky.
We certainly aren't trolls, we care for each other despite not meeting or knowing each others true identity.
Tomorrow 1st October will be first day of the rest of my life - grateful i can say that.
Xxxx
I know this is a bit late, but you should never feel like a bad mum.
Mine got out when I was 12, my father still continued his reign of terror for a few years after. But being able to sleep at night, knowing he wasn’t there and likely to try and kill my mum was a relief. I used to lay awake all night just listening, ready to run into the room to try stop him.
I am incredibly proud of my mum. She has a wonderful life now and yes, I have a few mental scars, I still have bad days, me and my sister will talk it out occasionally. But we are in awe of our mum. Your children will be proud of you too, they will be glad you’re still here and they’ll definitely not see you as a bad mum. Quite the opposite!
I’m behind on the thread, so if you’ve updated, I apologise. But I hope you’re safe and well. I hope the rest of your life is happy and full of good things. I won’t pretend it’ll be easy, but it’ll be totally worth it.
I’m so glad you decided to flee. Sending you so much love.