I have a tendency to becoming fixated on needing the ‘next’ thing in my life and while I don’t expressly think these words it does essentially amount to ‘if only I had x I would be happy/better/satisfied etc’. Even though I logically know this is not the case (because if it were the last x would have achieved that, right?).
Anyway. It’s an ongoing inner challenge. I have come a long way with it and can hand on heart say it’s been helpful for me to watch Lily over the years because she is walking proof that there is literally nothing on gods planet that will make you happy or satisfied if you are not already happy or satisfied within.
You will just be the same unhappy, dissatisfied, miserable person with the healthy baby, big house, Chanel bag, free sofa, garden, framed map of The Thames in gold leaf (I really like that lol), disposable income, holidays, expensive skincare, etc etc etc etc. Thanks for the lesson