John Stones #30 JS5 is back on our screen, how we wish he'd make us scream

[Gossgossgoss9888]

There’s so many in Liverpool yet I’ve only seen one once and it’s on the way back to the motorway after the match - it was so busy we couldn’t get across that side of the carriageway to get to it I’ll know for October - wonder if I can convince my dad to stop if they are that good



Are you local to me, or will that be adding another couple of hundred mines on to my round trip

I just love cinnamon - not as much as Everton or Bae, but probably the same amount as RLF (who has actually just said, “would have rather than had a cinnamon swirl than an egg butty this morning” - this is why we’re MFEO)



Mmmmm could you and @WylieWyles and even @cobette all go and get Cinnabons for me today please and take photos and write a review which will probably actually be like some sort of porn for me


Do you have a crisis team that you could talk to in your area? That could provide a bit of support until you get back on your feet so to speak?

There is, my GP gave me their number last time. But it's not a crisis, I'm not in danger, and all my records have the wrong address and I can't have them turning up at my parents' house.

Now I want a cinnamon bun

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If you need to offload, we're here to listen

Spoiler: Thank you ❤

Not much to offload about tbh.

Just pure, directionless, reasonless, pointless depression. Hours of blankness mixed in with hours of crying.

Can't do anything. Been reading you lot's posts here, and listening to sad songs, and that's about it. Nothing is interesting.

Got to be in the office again all week this week and it's been harder and harder to make it in. Doesn't help that the person I'm training is perceptive and on a few occasions last week was asking if I was okay, saying I'd been quiet. Am struggling to balance not having the energy to pretend to be happy with not having the energy to explain that I'm not.

Just want to hibernate.

 

[LurkingAnnie]

I've been to the Shard for the Peter Pan afternoon tea.

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I’ve literally been to London once (well twice, once for an interview, once as a tourist)

 

[mimimithis]

Love you all.

Am here and reading.

Not doing very well. Crash and burn.

Don't worry, am safe.

I want to wrap you in a blanket and make sure you’re all right. We’re here, if you want to talk, have some entertainment or a distraction.

 

[Gossgossgoss9888]

Is it too soon to buy Christmas party dresses?

This has been following me around insta and targeted ads

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Bronwyn Sequin Star Short Dress Black

www.monsoon.co.uk

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That’s gorgeous!

Spoiler: Christmas dress

I bought this dress for last Christmas but then felt distinctly un-Christmas-sparkly throughout the festive period so didn't wear it because I thought it would make me look like a knob.

Will try to wear this year.

(These are beautiful model pictures. I don't look like that.)

 

[Starttheline]

Finally home from Windsor … little one still not himself

oh I’m up to date with NRO … really enjoyed it!

Spoiler: Boring Life

not massively feeling great about myself but more drained and just a bit overwhelmed with stuff, last night was draining with one friend making digs and talking over everyone and the other being very OTT and bossy, felt like I couldn’t speak without being judged so I ended up not speaking at one point, definitely not feeling my normal self today, then obvs was emotional going to Windsor, May sign off again for the rest of the day or for a while

Take the time if you need it, we'll be here when you come back

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If it helps, I have/do feel the same regularly. I overthink everything I've said in conversation after the event, and worry that I've somehow come across like a nob, or offended someone. What then happens is that I end up just sitting back and being an observer. This is even the case with my oldest friends.

One of my biggest insecurities is the thought that I've killed the conversation. I have a group chat with a few friends who had babies around the same time. I needed some support a few weeks ago and just didn't get it (was just left on read), which made me just feel even worse. I've archived the chat for now and actually feel a huge relief.

Maybe completely irrelevant, but just to say, I get it.

 

[cobette]

Went to my mother in-laws for a roast. Was quite good. Carrots , parsnips, peas , mash, roasties , Yorkshire’s , she did me and RLF meat free chicken pasties the plate was the size of a mountain!’ And then she produced a huge platter of cakes

My heaven!!! I wish I could have Sunday dinner but I'm always working. If I had Sundays off I'd pull out all the stops every week.

Just about as it's in the same area, but it is slightly smaller and a bit obscured by other buildings

Looks like you went on a very good day for it. If its cloudy you can see fuck all.

The weather was unreal when we were there, we were SO hot. It was miserable walking around.

Spoiler: lunch

 

[mimimithis]

. Thanks! Usually I dont mind but they got rid of their big car. Got a fancy bmw now she doesn’t like it and wants a q3… how hard it must be to have such problems I’m very stressed with my LO his nursery have said they think he may have additional needs but haven’t said what and dropped them bomb on me over email! got a meeting tomorrow about it Safe to say I’m not looking forward to it And there is moaning about 10k cars

I'm sorry about the nursery dropping that bomb on you in written form and with no additional context. It might not mean anything more than he might need a little more time to adjust, I hope. Fingers crossed the meeting tomorrow will bring you clarity and peace of mind.

As for your friend troubles... I feel like people are really inconsiderate when it comes to being sensitive about other's people's feelings, especially these days. I see it in the hospital a lot, there's a "me first" mentality out there which depresses me, because people simply stop listening to and stopped being considerate of each other.

I'm also sorry to hear about your financial hardships, it's really unfair that a family like yours might struggle, while others can worry about "15k to play with". I find that comment so utterly ridiculous, I know I'd have told them to shut it, because that's the worst kind of bragging. A car is a car, but having a good family, and a great partner, like you obviously do, that's worth a whole lot more than those 15k.

 

[strawberrysunshine_x]

yodel has arrived. And he was fit!’n we can let him off. He had curls !!!!!!!’

 

[Violetroselily]

Is it wrong how happy I am over you recent levels of feralness!?

Thanks to this this guy

 

[Gossgossgoss9888]

Spoiler: Holding myself accountable by reporting to you

Got up early. No breakfast, felt sick. Went to work. Busy af but not too hideous, although can't help but feel there are horrors to come (big presentation tomorrow, I can hardly speak without hearing my own version of the Bojack Horseman "stupid piece of shit" monologue -

- so it's difficult to get things done).

Skipped lunch, not hungry, too busy. Million different things jostling for my attention and I don't have the focus or energy for even one.

Went to GP surgery. Filled in form. Have to wait "a few days" to be registered but they'll contact me when it's done. Realistically will be next week before I can even think about an appointment but doesn't matter anyway as I have to be in the office all this week and most of next and really don't know if I can face saying "I'm going to the doctor" to someone's face, let alone going back into the office afterwards. I'm hoping for a phone appointment anyway but obvs can't do that from the office.

So have done what I can for now. Little baby steps. Have managed to get through day without crying in front of anyone although there's been a couple of close calls and it doesn't seem far off now.

Am home now, wrapped in blanket, watched the new bae video and he's lovely and that's something. Grabbed a pasta bake from the shop on my way home and have managed to raise the energy to switch the oven on. If anything's going to help me it's probably going to be carbs and cheese.

Have some purple bae.

Oooh a spinning one. Maybe do it at the end of the day, so you can go back to the room if you feel poorly?

Spoiler: Bungee

Yes, I bungee jumped off Macau Tower a few years ago when I was in Hong Kong. I did it as an homage to the late Anthony Bourdain who did it in one of his Hong Kong episodes. It was exhilarating.

You are so adventurous!

 

[333149O]

just lit my first Halloween candle of the year lads

Spoiler: spooky bitch szn

featuring a couple of my hp funkos, I’m such a geek. don’t mind me

 

[LurkingAnnie]

. Thanks! Usually I dont mind but they got rid of their big car. Got a fancy bmw now she doesn’t like it and wants a q3… how hard it must be to have such problems I’m very stressed with my LO his nursery have said they think he may have additional needs but haven’t said what and dropped them bomb on me over email! got a meeting tomorrow about it Safe to say I’m not looking forward to it And there is moaning about 10k cars

To me, you can have all the money in the world and be miserable.
You’re very fortunate to have your little family, and that’s what’s important. It’s normal to want more for yourself, but you would never trade what you’ve got. You’re so fortunate in many ways

 

[cobette]

Spoiler: soaked

Already onto second OOTD as got soaked!

Was that wet I've had to change everything including bra and knickers. Heading to get an Uber now as RLF cannot be trusted to drive alone.

 

[cobette]

Someone help me channel the thoughts I am having into something useful

you lot would think I look like a teenage boy half the time I swear you’re all so well put together you little fitties

It's OK friend, I will join you in my hoodie and joggers/leggings.

 

[LurkingAnnie]

We want you just in your pants when you give us our private dance?

 

[strawberrysunshine_x]

I'm sorry about the nursery dropping that bomb on you in written form and with no additional context. It might not mean anything more than he might need a little more time to adjust, I hope. Fingers crossed the meeting tomorrow will bring you clarity and peace of mind.

As for your friend troubles... I feel like people are really inconsiderate when it comes to being sensitive about other's people's feelings, especially these days. I see it in the hospital a lot, there's a "me first" mentality out there which depresses me, because people simply stop listening to and stopped being considerate of each other.

I'm also sorry to hear about your financial hardships, it's really unfair that a family like yours might struggle, while others can worry about "15k to play with". I find that comment so utterly ridiculous, I know I'd have told them to shut it, because that's the worst kind of bragging. A car is a car, but having a good family, and a great partner, like you obviously do, that's worth a whole lot more than those 15k.

he is a bit behind on his speech but he’s getting there I think. Just slowly. In his own time. I’m not overly worried. a little bit but he’s trying and he has understanding. I was very annoyed they chose to tell me over email very out of the blue. Thankyou for your kind words you are a diamond.
hope work is ok. Did you sleep well xx b

 

[2busyshopping34]

hello

john can i pls have my scummy whores back they’re mine not urs

- jack


shit jg stole my phone soz kids

 

[Violetroselily]

Cinnamon social slice for @LurkingAnnie

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I am LIVID I've gone in to the office, there are no desks because some team have turned up en masse, now I'm sat at a really shitty desk that doesn't work properly and trying to decide when to cut my losses and go home

 

[Violetroselily]

Someone help me channel the thoughts I am having into something useful

I'm just going to think about fucking him tbh. Charged everything up this morning.

 

[Gossgossgoss9888]

Please eat, lovely x
And obsessed with the crush update

Spoiler: ❤

Sounds like you did a lot on little food and hydration. If you aren't hungry, please do make sure to hydrate, your brain needs it, more than food, honestly.

You did a great job of juggling all those works, though, and not let it all fall apart. And yay for your mini talk with your crush.

What have you planned for the evening? Anything nice?

Am trying. Going to go and stare at the fridge in hope of inspiration now. Will have a drink just for you.

Nothing planned for the evening. Sorry. I can't describe my total lack of interest in anything without seriously bringing down the mood here. I will try to eat. Then will probably go and lie in the dark and scroll through the Internet aimlessly until I can sleep.