Since you have been reading here gin, you know what would prove to us all that you are a "loving mother"? getting your kids an yourself sorted
Get J into speech therapy
Get the kids into groups so they can mix with others
Stop fking separating them
Keep them INDOORS WHEN ITS HOT
Keep them hydrated an give them a good diet
Call them by their actual names
Ditch the nanny an PARENT
Stop forcing them to sleep 18h a day
Stop teaching them that 5000 vacations is normal
Get yourself therapy
Get back driving
All of these things are what's NORMAL to parents but it seems like you need to be reminded what it takes to actually be a involved an "loving mother" neither of which you actually are
Get J into speech therapy
Get the kids into groups so they can mix with others
Stop fking separating them
Keep them INDOORS WHEN ITS HOT
Keep them hydrated an give them a good diet
Call them by their actual names
Ditch the nanny an PARENT
Stop forcing them to sleep 18h a day
Stop teaching them that 5000 vacations is normal
Get yourself therapy
Get back driving
All of these things are what's NORMAL to parents but it seems like you need to be reminded what it takes to actually be a involved an "loving mother" neither of which you actually are