I feel like I'm
bleeping going through the ringer - have a pile of final uni assignments on top of me and for the most part I know I'll be able to get them done, but I've started the combined pill and it's only day 3 of me starting it but I've been unable to do anything for each day. Yesterday is was a banging headache for the whole day and today it's the most intense nausea I've ever felt. Currently lying in bed crying because I just feel so defeated and sick and horrible. I've been quite good with my depression and anxiety recently, I've been able to keep myself in check and notice my cues etc and just be in top of things and this makes me feel like I've been thrown a million steps back. Idk if I should be stubborn and stop the pill or if I should continue since its just day 3 - but if I continue and it carries on like this I definitely don't think I'll be able to get any uni work done.
The falling off a bike into a nettle Bush is very familiar to me and happened to me in my own childhood, and we went home promptly after and I can remember many a times when my own mother told me going to the park or going out was a waste of time because of something I had done - this isn't something I remember with resent, it's something we joke about and laugh about now. Trust me when I say you're doing amazing as a parent esoevailyl with the mental health struggles you face and that these little blips where it feels like you're not doing your best are inevitable, but you're doing the best you can.