I come here a lot in a masochistic way... I have related to Ruby in a lot of ways - the same age, I too do not have a job, and honestly I hate the idea of working 9/5, or even half-time, I also attend one of the best unis in my country and do not use any of its resources, i have only a couple of friends, i live with my parents and rot in my bedroom (as i have failed one of my courses and this final year is only for this course and to write my bachelors) while they nag about that. I am too a shell of my previous self (before COVID). I see a lot of similarities.
But i also see a lot of differences - she lives in a 1st world country, she does YT, she earns money, but hey people here point out her bad writing, poor hygiene, lies, how she fakes productivity. And it all made me feel better about my life. Cause that’s the life I would like to have but she’s BAD at it so it’s not that bad for me!
And now I’m feeling betrayed. Why Ruby? Why can you be bad at productivity, studying, making videos and still get into Oxford? (Here Oxford being the metaphorical life-prize)and why can’t i? I think it better for my mh too unsubscribe from her and to not check tattle
No one apart from my therapist will probably understand what am i talking about, so i will leave it here. I hope it’s clear what i wanted to say