Ruby Granger #19 Finished my porridge, eaten my peas; mummy, I'm homesick, take me home please

[lemonlime]

I think if you don't get it out of your system when you're young, it leaves a bigger mess to deal with when you do it older.

Not to say that everyone has to go off the rails once in their life, what I mean is if you are repressing yourself to fit into a mold when you're younger, whatever that may be, your mind and body usually acts out to balance things out later on. A lot of my hardcore party friends burned out badly and switched off proper, and some of the most goodie two shoes people I knew started to act like teenagers in their late 20s. It's a bit awkward to watch. I doubt Ruby has it in her to do shots off gogo dancers' bellies but I feel.like she is actively policing herself to not put a foot out of the line with these weird strict 'aesthetic' rules she forced on herself. She was always a bit strange but she was never this rigid before. She actually speaks and acts more normal around her family so I can't help but think that this online Ruby Granger persona has become a leash around her neck.

 

[Lasagnacreamcone]

I think if you don't get it out of your system when you're young, it leaves a bigger mess to deal with when you do it older.

Not to say that everyone has to go off the rails once in their life, what I mean is if you are repressing yourself to fit into a mold when you're younger, whatever that may be, your mind and body usually acts out to balance things out later on. A lot of my hardcore party friends burned out badly and switched off proper, and some of the most goodie two shoes people I knew started to act like teenagers in their late 20s. It's a bit awkward to watch. I doubt Ruby has it in her to do shots off gogo dancers' bellies but I feel.like she is actively policing herself to not put a foot out of the line with these weird strict 'aesthetic' rules she forced on herself. She was always a bit strange but she was never this rigid before. She actually speaks and acts more normal around her family so I can't help but think that this online Ruby Granger persona has become a leash around her neck.

Yeah one of my high school friends was a straight-A student, lots and lots of pressure from her parents, and she went to med school. We've been calling that she'd since we were like 15, and yeah, at 21 she left the program and now she has a drug problem.
Anyways.
I know Ruby said in one of her videos that her parents never pressured her to study like she does, but still, I doubt her parents have like, nothing to do with it.
As a perfect exemple of the former gifted kid syndrom myself (I think there are a lot of us here lmao), I know how being valued over your "intelligence" (because school values a very specific type of inteligence and also, it's not that hard to get As when you're 12) can be very damaging. Constant praise over your grades makes you think it's a part of you, being "smart". And if you can't keep it up in adolescence/early adulthood, well you either get depressed or you go to great lengths (like Ruby does) to cover up your inability to have good grades.
I think she discovered that writing and studying litterature is not for her, but she made it her personality so much that she can't accept it. And now she cheats.
Sometimes reading books is only something you do to escape a world when you have no friends, as a kid. But if you get obssessed about being someone else (like Hermione Granger), and have a whole Youtube channel about it where all you do is study and read, well you get kinda stuck in this label you gave yourself. And things feel out of your control so you feel the need to write every breath you take down so it's less scary.

 

[irunforfun]

Finally, Molly (well her public account) has unfollowed Ruby. Again.

 

[violetapples]

Finally, Molly (well her public account) has unfollowed Ruby. Again.

Honestly good grief. I like to think Molly is honestly above Ruby's bullshit. Maybe they really did talk behind the scenes and Ruby said she'd stop with the triggering content, but the stupid cabbage oatmeal crap was Molly's last straw and made her really wake up and realize that Ruby is purposefully triggering her audience and her friends, even those who are in ED recovery and are self-aware and mature enough to not promote unhealthy eating behaviours online. I know her re-following Ruby was a bad sign, but I think this is a step in the right direction for Molly as a content creator, but also for her personal friendships and hopefully her own mental wellbeing.

 

[3calico3]

Why would you want to trigger your audience? Is it a superiority thing?

 

[emmer_moans]

Why would you want to trigger your audience? Is it a superiority thing?

That, plus Misery loves company.

 

[Griftwood]

Finally, Molly (well her public account) has unfollowed Ruby. Again.

Nope. She’s still following Ruby’s main account, she never followed the food account as far as I know.

 

[Ripley Rose Kat]

She's been very quiet of late. How long do we give it until we get something related to mental health and then refusing to discuss like she did last time?

 

[lythamstannes]

Customer: "Umm, what else do you have?"

Ruby: "Well, we also have pico-lays a la Roobee, so they come with a shot glass' worth of frozen peas and a thimble of peanut butter."

"Excuse me, my 'pico-lays' have loads of dried fruit in them... are they currants?"

Ruby: "Oh no, that's just a sprinkling of Dark Academia aesthetic (dead flies from the windowsill...)

 

[figgypud]

It's from this essay grade reaction video:

Watching this again has made me think that maybe this essay is the reason she obsessively relies on critical essays to form her work now, because trying to be original and "taking a chonce" backfired on her so now she refuses to use her own thoughts at all.

 

[buflesse]

Honestly good grief. I like to think Molly is honestly above Ruby's bullshit. Maybe they really did talk behind the scenes and Ruby said she'd stop with the triggering content, but the stupid cabbage oatmeal crap was Molly's last straw and made her really wake up and realize that Ruby is purposefully triggering her audience and her friends, even those who are in ED recovery and are self-aware and mature enough to not promote unhealthy eating behaviours online. I know her re-following Ruby was a bad sign, but I think this is a step in the right direction for Molly as a content creator, but also for her personal friendships and hopefully her own mental wellbeing.

Honestly, Molly is not above Ruby's bullshit unfortunately. She made a great show of unfollowing her before, then most likely panicked and realised it was harming her chances of becoming a big influencer. She hasn't unfollowed Ruby again and she never followed Ruby's vegan account. She likes all Ruby's stuff and enables her massively. The last 20 of Ruby's posts have all been liked by Molly.

 

[CatCafe234]

Why would you want to trigger your audience? Is it a superiority thing?

I honestly think that Ruby is so unwell now that she’s getting a thrill from 1) people suggesting that she might have an ED, 2) people leaping to defend her and 3) watching people in the comments fight over her. I’m sure it’s making her feel very important and powerful but it’s incredibly disturbing to watch.

 

[seosamh]

Not really on topic but I found it a bit funny so thought I’d share... What a distinctive quote

 

[gossip_guy]

Watching this again has made me think that maybe this essay is the reason she obsessively relies on critical essays to form her work now, because trying to be original and "taking a chonce" backfired on her so now she refuses to use her own thoughts at all.

Yeah, she learned completely the wrong lesson from it, but since she's been getting high grades and never considers that she might be wrong, she won't realise that.

She thinks she was punished with a lower grade for being original, when that's not the case.

She actually could've written whatever argument she wanted, so long as it answered the essay question, made clear sense and was supported by secondary material.

She got the grade she deserved for writing an essay in which she didn’t present a clear, consistent argument and didn't answer the question presented, so her tutor had no idea what point she was trying to make.

Ruby clearly never realised that the first year grades don't count towards the final grade precisely so that students can experiment a little and get used to what's expected at uni level without fear of grades being negatively impacted. That was her opportunity to finally learn how to structure a clear, relevant essay based on original critical thought.

It also provides a lot of leeway so that freshers can go out, socialise, try new activities and become well-rounded student and experience life outside essays without worrying about tanking their grade.

Ruby learned the wrong lessons or didn't learn at all. Her self-imposed lack of socialisation and refusal to try anything new didn’t benefit her grades in first year, and after that, she only filled that extra time with pointless, redundant busywork. But now she has no social life outside the one friend she obsessively clings to, her cousins, and random younger kids her parents used to arrange playdates with.

And her refusal and inability to use any original thought coherently in an essay has now left her completely unequipped to write a dissertation, which will drag her entire grade down.

 

[Dirtylittlesecretman23]

It's from this essay grade reaction video:



It's peak Ruby stupidity.

She's "so brave" for showing that she cried like a baby for sympathy after getting a lower grade than expected after (yet again) wilfully ignoring all instructions and "taking chances" with whatever irrelevant crap she put to paper.

Naturally, she thinks it's not her fault at all. It's the system's fault for not rewarding her for submitting experimental nonsense in lieu of a coherent essay that answers the clear question she was given.

She's crushed by a high 2:2 (which still isn't the worst grade) and claims she was hoping for a 2:1 because "you can't predict getting a first, but..." - her oh-so-humble way of saying she expected to be given a first.

As with most UK degrees, her 1st year essay grades do not count towards final degree grade. If she'd actually gotten a first, it would've meant just as little to her final grades, which makes this especially stupid to have spent far too much time on this mess and have a breakdown over the predictable result.

Honestly it's one of my go to vids to make me feel better. There's honestly something so comforting and funny watching white middle class people who think they're God's gift to academia cry because the system isn't rewarding them like it used to.

That and jade's Oxford rejection vid. Just something about watching these people fail makes me feel like there is some justice in the world

 

[gossip_guy]

Of course, the only thing that could get her to show her face while she desperately hopes for the backlash to blow over is yet another #gifted ad story of her advertising Miss Patina fast fashion while chewing a matcha slurry in lieu of actual food.

 

[anakinskywalkers]

Honestly it's one of my go to vids to make me feel better. There's honestly something so comforting and funny watching white middle class people who think they're God's gift to academia cry because the system isn't rewarding them like it used to.

That and jade's Oxford rejection vid. Just something about watching these people fail makes me feel like there is some justice in the world

I watch Jade's rejection vid frequently so glad I'm not the only one who revels in privileged studytuber misery.

 

[wildworIdx]

(Sorry for my spout of absence)

But there's a new video up!

 

[xoxoxo13]

(Sorry for my spout of absence)

But there's a new video up!

I used notion up until a few months ago, so I don't know if this has changed, but do the notes get stored in a cloud? I stopped using it because there was simply no backup. Unless there is if there's a paying version?

I just find it hilarious that Ms Perfectionist Hermione Granger Wannabe might lose all her notes because notion is more Aesthetic.

 

[Griftwood]

lol all the pages she shows were created at 3:49 pm on November 7th either our Roobster is super speedy, or she’s renaming the same page over and over again to simulate actual notes
edit: some were made at 4:06 but my point still stands, also I can’t believe I interrupted my tipsy sea-shanty kick for this nonsense