Everybody makes mistakes. I know it's not the same, but I spent stupid amounts when I was severely depressed. Buying something new helped me feel better in that moment and I was easily spending £100 a month.
You have to remember though that you were doing your best. I don't have any children yet, but I honestly know that I too would have fallen into the insta trap.
Have you got a repayment plan in place? Stepchange is a charity that could really help you if you haven't contacted them already.
But you are good enough already. Your baby won't know or care about any of that. My mother and hundreds of other women raised children without a sleepyhead. If my mother would have had a changing bag I can honestly picture it being a plastic carrier bag. The pump for my sister was a simple manual avent one. You do what you can- and that is enough.
To ALL the mums reading this, this is spot on!!
Being loved, fed, played with, given attention, clean and safe. That’s what babies and kids need. Not £30ph nannies at a family weekend away or a Tiba and Marle bag
they definitely don’t need cliquey privileged instashitmums flogging freebies to their mums just trying their best! Our babies and kids need us