Ah, I feel ya, my friend
She's not exactly mine and officially belongs one of my younger sisters. I'm just hanging out with her while in Moscow
Still can't bring myself to get a new cat after Musya's death last February. Just doesn't feel right, although I did let go - for the couple of months after I couldn't even look at her pics without crying. Now it's just very bittersweet
I guess it's because I've found her as a tiny kitten when I turned 8 and she was with me for 21 years, which is the vast majority of my conscious life. I know that it is recommended to get new ones to be able to let go completely faster, but, as I was saying, doesn't feel like it just yet. So getting cuddles (and scratches with this one) with other people's cats for now