I was like this when trying for a baby. 7 years it took us! I went through hundreds of pregnancy tests, ovulation tests, read every article and health condition that could affect my fertility, changed my diet and exercised and it was just on my mind 24/7. I eventually got help with a fertility dr who put me on meds to encourage me to ovulate, it took 4 attempts, by the third month I just thought it was never going to happen. My husband and I booked a weekend away and really enjoyed ourselves, didnt think about getting pregnant and that month I fell pregnant on our trip. It does happen and will happen! I then fell pregnant by surprise a year later! Its all timing and yes you do need to let go! If you constantly think of things your lacking i.e money, then your telling the universe, then thats what rhe universe will keep giving you. Have you tried scripting? Write down what your ideal partner would be. Not what he looks like but how he makes you feel (the universe picks up on your vibration of how they would make you feel, not what he looks like etc...) and then put a date you want to achieve this by. I did scripting when trying to get pregnant and I said I wanted to have a baby by christmas 2017 and my daughter was born the nov 2017