That’s amazing!! A win is still a win! My issue is letting go, when I put it out in the universe, it’s all I can think about it and get upset when it doesn’t happen after 24hrs x
Awwww I’m so happy for you!!
How often did you do this? Once a night? Once a week? That’s my issue and I can’t seem to let gooo xx
Don't beat yourself up about it
@boomska I struggle with the same issues i.e Lack of patience and sometimes lack of confidence.
It's about believing that we are worthy of having good things manifest in our lives isn't it?
It's amazing how often the gremlin of self sabotage (also known as fear) can pop up and undermine all our better efforts isn't it?
I think the challenge is to find peace and equilibrium and that's not always easy. In my own case I come from quite a deprived area and have ancestors who have faced great poverty and the struggle for survival and it's almost like that gets hardwired into your DNA when a lack of resources and great determination is what you need and encounter that's what you also find coming true?
I.e that life is hard and hard work and I don't have enough so my central nervous system has to go into red alert (leading to all kinds of inflammation) and my body has to store unnecessary fat (cling onto it) Just in case? Just in case we encounter another famine?
So who can believe that life could be a feast of abundance after all that?
When we find it hard to let go it's nearly always the past calling us back isn't it?
Again in my own case quite literally I am a hoarder I accumulate I need proof of abundance it's like I don't trust life? Not fully anyway?
So I think their can be a lot of inner obstacles that crop up when you start on this journey of wanting maybe to be a bit more in control of your destiny and asking the universe for help?
Don't worry that's to be expected I think it's good to take an inventory of all the excess baggage and understand where that came from and if it is holding you back or not?
Not to be glib but when you step into the light you can find your darkness (shadow) becoming more obvious as well and that can be scary?
So your not alone in being uncertain or finding it difficult sometimes.
Actually I am glad that I found this thread because I was feeling the need to establish some boundaries in my life and to re start my own journey of manifesting a better reality if you will.
When I did it previously (before post natal depression and chronic fog hit me plus lockdown etc etc) with some success this book helped me.
The sacred history...How angels mystics and higher intelligence made our world.
By Jonathan Black.
See also The secret history of the world.
The book that I recently brought to hopefully reignite that flame of self belief is ..
You'll see it when you believe it....by Wayne Dwyer
Tbh there are plenty of other authors but I would use your intuition and ask yourself who feels like the most supportive or understanding author for you right now?
Good luck.
Also it's good that your happy for others (never underestimate that) and happiness in some form or other will come to you also.
Just throughout the day when I had a few minutes free I would “chat” to my baby. And I would sit at some point every night quietly and visualise me holding it and really try to project that feeling out into the universe. People thought i was mad probably lol, but it really helped me to hold onto a positive feeling when going through the helm that is long term TTC.
