She is just so thoroughly unpleasant isn’t she? You’re so busy feeling sorry for yourself Jack because you don’t have the things you think you should have (mortgage free house with orangery, spouse, unlimited disposable income etc) that you can’t see that the reason your life is tit is you. You’re a horrible, selfish, cruel person. You’ve had so many amazing opportunities over the last 10 years that you’ve pissed up the wall (or shoved up your nose). Instead of lashing out like a petulant toddler at anyone who questions you why don’t you try stepping back, doing some self reflection, and being an adult who is accountable and responsible for themselves and their actions.