No I’m not happy. I should be really because my life isn’t THAT bad. I’m lucky to have a lovely (most of the time
) long term partner and 2 kids. We have a roof over our heads even if it isn’t technically ‘ours’ and enough money for everything we need even if it is a struggle some months.
I’m gonna sound petulant now but
duck it. I find life to be a bit of a slog 95% of the time, I have no zest for life. I dont want to waffle on because I’d be here all night but ugh I wish I never existed sometimes.
On the subject of money, I think it would probably make me happier. I don’t think it would fix all my problems but we could clear all our debt and that would help a lot. We could buy ourselves a home which is something we desperately want but is painfully out of reach, having a place that is ours that we got to pick because we love it, not just because it’s the only decent rental in the area would definitely make me happier. I could also get therapy for my poor mental health and finally figure out what the
duck is wrong with me to make me hate life so much, I could get some help regarding my weight and fitness, because I lack the motivation to do it in my own but can’t afford a gym membership or PT. It’s hard to imagine how I wouldn’t be happier with more money to be honest. It’s not about buying lots of ‘stuff’ but it would be nice to not have to worry about ensuring we keep enough in the bank for the food shopping every week and then having stress when an unexpected cost comes up. Being able to just go on a day trip without having to plan in advance and work out if we can afford it this month or If we have to wait until next. A lot of my stress essentially boils down to money and how often I am required to spend it to simply survive when I’d rather save it or put it towards something in life that actually brings joy, or when I want to do something fun for the kids but can’t afford it.