I'm in my early 30s. I've got very little contact with my family because they're very, very abusive. So I've got used to being alone. In my 20s it was torture to never have anyone to lean on, but now I am very self reliant and resilient. I look around me at people my age and realise that they are still very reliant on their parents and partners. They often think they have better lives than me because they think that being alone is a bad thing, but from my point of view, it's a pity for them that they rely on other people, to the extent that they will even stay in relationships they're unhappy in, and they daren't go on a dream holiday if no one will go with them. It's really sad to see.
I so much enjoy my own company and life now, that I feel irritated at the thought of someone disturbing it. Even when I have short-term relationships, I just hate having to live my life around someone else, like have to compromise what film to see, what night to go out, having to have them in my space. I think there is a lot of pressure on women to be selfless, even to the extent that if you say "No, I don't want to get married or have children" people pressure you that you should ignore that and become an unpaid maid for a husband and children.
Even apart from having a family, it would make you round-the-clock in contact with people you really didn't want in your life. It's scary that teachers can just email you now, and parents from the school gate can Whatsapp you whenever they want. Health visitors, kids' friends' parents, other people talking to you just because you've got a bump or a pram. I think it would be hell.
I have a hobby I am very passionate about, and the thought of having children, which would take my time away from that, would be almost ruining my life.
"Who's going to look after you when you're old?" Well, that's my responsibility. Having children would make a severe dent in my finances that would cut into my savings/pension or ability to hire carers or move into a care home. I profoundly disagree with having children expecting that they're going to look after you when you get old. It's not 1970, where your daughter will live on the same street as you and have time to come and do your laundry. People often move far away from their parents now and juggle three jobs.
What if they are born with a severe disability or have an accident, and they can't look after you? I find that people are blind to the real possibilities of having children. They only imagine an easy pregnancy, an easy birth, a healthy child. They don't think about the permanent physical damage that many women suffer in childbirth, or the fact that the child may have serious disabilities. I'm not saying disabled children are worth any less than any other child, I'm saying that most people who want children seem to only be prepared for the easiest scenario.
I wasn't put on this Earth just to be a slave for other people. The economy is very bad for ordinary people right now, and to have a kid would plunge me from "managing" to "below the breadline". People having constant access to me would be a damage to my mental health. I think I would be a shit parent, not because I'm a bad person, but because of the person I'd become if I were constantly harried, invaded, sleep deprived, poor and unable to do the things I love.
/ramble.
Peace out!