Just chucking out a few symptoms and thoughts and wondering if these resonate?
A feeling of being the doer and the observer. That despite being separate from society I am somehow not alone being duplicate somehow. So weird but watching myself & analysing a billion things all simultaneously.
A mind that is like a labyrinth whizzing and zig zagging.
Today I have a shutdown. No energy and can only cut off from everything. The simplest task is enormous. Plastic containers with droplets from DW leave me exhausted at the sight and thought of drying. I genuinely can't work out if I have a virus or my brain has gone into waiting mode.
Waiting to kick-start. I couldn't even share this with someone in real life even if I wanted to. It's like a glass panel.
Years ago, I saw a cartoon trying to describe autism. There was a large fish bowl with lots of fish swimming around. Within the fish bowl was a smaller fish bowl with just one fish swimming on it's own.
To me it summed up how I feel and just occasionally I get out of the little fishbowl and join the others but not for long. Sorry for massive brain dump.
A feeling of being the doer and the observer. That despite being separate from society I am somehow not alone being duplicate somehow. So weird but watching myself & analysing a billion things all simultaneously.
A mind that is like a labyrinth whizzing and zig zagging.
Today I have a shutdown. No energy and can only cut off from everything. The simplest task is enormous. Plastic containers with droplets from DW leave me exhausted at the sight and thought of drying. I genuinely can't work out if I have a virus or my brain has gone into waiting mode.
Waiting to kick-start. I couldn't even share this with someone in real life even if I wanted to. It's like a glass panel.
Years ago, I saw a cartoon trying to describe autism. There was a large fish bowl with lots of fish swimming around. Within the fish bowl was a smaller fish bowl with just one fish swimming on it's own.
To me it summed up how I feel and just occasionally I get out of the little fishbowl and join the others but not for long. Sorry for massive brain dump.