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invisibleotter

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I'm a 26 year old woman & was diagnosed with ADHD at 22. I was diagnosed by a psychiatrist who specialised in Adult ADHD. I have noticed in previous posts that people mention about a lack of attention & would like to point out that although attention deficit is in the disorders name, this is only a same part of the disorder and to have ADHD there are quite a number of other behaviours you have to exhibit in childhood and as an adult. Also to be diagnosed, your life has to have been severely & negativity impacted as a child, teen & adult due to your behaviours.

First of all I would like to point out ADHD isn't actually an attention deficit. It is the inability to regulate attention. There will periods you won't concentrate at all & then periods of hyper focus where you will be completely engrossed in something to the point you forget to eat, drink & in general care for yourself. To have ADHD you need both the deficit and the hyper focus.

The second aspect of ADHD is emotional regulation, people both make & female like with attention have difficulty regulating emotions, meaning they feel & express the full extent of an emotion. This will be from childhood, So a child with ADHD's behaviour may look like a tantrum or over excitement, but it's because they feel the full force of an emotion all the time.

Another aspect of ADHD is depression, anxiety, addiction & social ineptness. One or more of these are aspects of ADHD in both men & women. Adults ADHD usually goes hand in hand with depression &/or anxiety. This is due to the inability to regulate emotions & due to the persons brain working much faster. There are also high levels of addictive,risk taking behaviour in people with ADHD such as cigarettes, alcohol, drugs & gambling are all highly to be used , but it can also involved behaviour such as driving at high speeds, having unprotected sex etc. The reason for this people with ADHD are highly impulsive & find it very difficult not become addicted once a behaviour is tried once, as this gives a rush of dopamine which which is a chemical in the brain that people with ADHD lack.

Another aspect of ADHD which also isn't mentioned above is difficulty in social situations. You don't need to be hyper kids with ADHD often tend to be quite introverted in social situations, but social behaviours of people with ADHD appear from the time they are young kids and these behaviours are actually very similar to that of autism or sensory processing disorder. Although people with ADHD are highly creative and tend to excel in the arts, they actually work best in a structured environment with clear set processes & targets, as this allows the ADHD brain to relax, as it does not need to run through scenarios as structure takes away the uncertainty of situations.

As a woman who suffered with mental illness since early teens and suffered with undiagnosed ADHD for the majority of my education, who knows just how difficult a life with ADHD is & to have people not believe it a real disorder or not understand it, I ask not to self diagnose yourself, only an expert in this field can diagnose you & assuming you have it & have coped with on your own without any mental illness, negative behaviour means you don't have it & saying this diminishes the effect this disorder has on the lives of people who actually have it.
 
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hiya_hun

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I work in Grant adminstration for the public service in Ireland. It works well for me cause it's desk based so no moving abou, I know exactly what to expect everyday & I'm good at spotting continuity errors, but I have been here two years & am getting bored of the work as I have seen it all.

Problem is don't want to move laterally as I have alot of freedom to go for walkabouts during the day as my manager doesn't care what we do once the work is done, also alot of my colleagues know about my issues & are quite understanding. So moving from this would be difficult & moving up is difficult as I don't have a master's & can't see myself having the strength to do one & complete considering my undergrad nearly killed me.

I worked in a previous department before this and hated it as it was alot more out of the office organising workshops, everyday was different & I didn't know what to expect so was constantly on high alert, was anxious & I didn't particularly like the people I was working with.

I also worked in a bar during college which was fun, as I it was same shit different day, but the people I worked with were gas craic.

However, any of the desk jobs I have worked at, I have been medicated for and am on quite a high dose of vyvanse, so that helps slow my mind down enough to think clearly, without that a desk job would be difficult as my mind would be constantly spinning.
Thanks for confirming what I thought - that you have no authority, training or qualifications to say to someone 'you probably don't have ADHD'. Apart from you yourself having it and being formally diagnosed.

I must say I think you've been so lucky to receive a diagnosis at the age of 22 - as someone who is likely to be over a decade older than you when - IF - I get diagnosed, I believe my whole life may have been completely different, especially with regards to my career, if I had had some kind of understanding of my mental health and behaviour - along with treatment in my early twenties.

Thanks for your input though even though I did find it rather negative towards me.
 
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hiya_hun

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Wondering if anyone has experienced this.

After a few events last year I faced up to something that has been on my mind for a while and contacted my doctor about a diagnosis for ADHD.

I was struggling at work and at home and when I was faced with performance reviews and risked losing my job I looked online and all the problems I was having (from my managers perspective) were textbook for ADHD - particularly in adult women. It explained all the problems I was having at work and to be honest I was always a really high achiever in school but had problems the whole way through and was almost sent to a specialist behaviour school at one point. I've never been 'hyperactive' like you would assume. But I do think a diagnosis would explain a huge chunk of my life.

My husband is super supportive and agrees that the personality and behaviour traits typical of ADHD are very 'me'.

Since last year I've quit my job (really lucky to be able to do this I know!!) and I am looking for new work. I told my old employer that I had spoken to a doctor about this diagnosis as part of my performance reviews but to be honest by that point, I was just so unhappy there and that's when I handed in my notice. I probably could of tried to get their support more but due to the nature of my role and the way I had been treated thus far, I didn't want to pursue staying there. The amount of adaptions to suit me just wouldn't work and also how could I expect them to do this without a formal diagnosis.

I am currently on the waiting list having been referred by my doctor but aparently there is only one specialist in the whole of the north west that does adult ADHD diagnosis and his wait list is 18 months. I was considering going private a couple of months ago but now I'm not working it's not really feesable. All I did to get referred was send my doctor every document my old manager put together as part of my formal performance reviews with a letter from me. Everything on there is a symptom of ADHD in adult women.

Here is the list on the NHS website of symptoms in adults.

- carelessness and lack of attention to detail
- continually starting new tasks before finishing old ones
- poor organisational skills
- inability to focus or prioritise
- continually losing or misplacing things
- forgetfulness
- restlessness and edginess
- difficulty keeping quiet, and speaking out of turn
- blurting out responses and often interrupting others
- mood swings, irritability and a quick temper
- inability to deal with stress
- extreme impatience
- taking risks in activities, often with little or no regard for personal safety or the safety of others – for example, driving dangerously

Basically - I wanted to just start this post to ask the following.

Do any of you out there have ADHD and did you get diagnosed later?
How did it affect you?
How do you manage the symptoms?

Obviously as im now not working I'm considering a career change that might be more suited to me but I'm not sure what to do. Any advice or experience of this in adults I would really really appreciate please!!
 
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Guacamole123

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Hi I’m 21 and I think I match the criteria too! I know this sounds awful, but I’ve always previously associated ADHD with ‘naughty children’, although I know ADHD kids now that don’t reflect this.
I can’t concentrate at work AT ALL, urgent deadlines don’t even motivate me to start a task. I can sit for hours doing sweet fuck all and then spend 10 minutes rushing things. And it’s not like I can’t be bothered, it’s just that I can’t concentrate for that long, or end up getting distracted. I also find myself INCREDIBLY stressed and overwhelmed at work, even though the average person would probably look at my work load and find it more than manageable. I also cringe at myself after conversations sometimes as I know I’ve just completely spoken over people or changed the subject topic for no apparent reason!
 
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I'm pretty sure I have it. I just suck at life. I struggle with everything. Overwhelmed constantly. Always had depression and anxiety as well and recently quit my job because I did night shifts and the sleep deprivation turned me into an absolute psycho. Plus the fact I struggle with the repetitiveness of doing the saaaame bloody thing every time, knowing I have hours of utter boredom ahead of me. Definitely never been hyper or active, bouncing off the walls and stuff, not on the outside anyway. Sometimes I can sit staring into space for hours but on the inside my brain is going nuts, it's never quiet in there! And I have 2 settings, basically too overwhelmed or exhausted to do anything but desperately wanting to, and seeing all the things around me that need doing and hating myself for not being able to do it, or go go go. I'm socialising, cleaning the entire house, baking, exercising, cannot stop. Its ridiculous. Literally yesterday I cleaned my entire house, made phone calls, got shit done, took me from 9am til 6pm and didn't even stop to eat. Today? Dropped the kids off at school and then went back to bed.

Ugh.
 
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Isa Drennan

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I find it interesting how ADHD presents differently in adult women

"Waiting mode" is an interesting symptom, I do struggle with this but haven't been diagnosed with ADHD.

If I don't start work until 12pm, all I can think about that morning is work. I can't do anything else because all I do is fixate on the 12pm start. I really struggle focusing my attention elsewhere, or doing things before work/appointments at set times, because all I can focus on is getting the set task done!
 
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nightfeedz

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I find it interesting how ADHD presents differently in adult women

"Waiting mode" is an interesting symptom, I do struggle with this but haven't been diagnosed with ADHD.

If I don't start work until 12pm, all I can think about that morning is work. I can't do anything else because all I do is fixate on the 12pm start. I really struggle focusing my attention elsewhere, or doing things before work/appointments at set times, because all I can focus on is getting the set task done!
I had never heard of waiting mode before but I know what you mean. Working shifts used to drive me mad, the whole day was written off if I had an afternoon start.
 
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JadeyJ

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I’m so glad I’ve found this thread.

I haven’t been diagnosed with ADHD, but I can relate to pretty much every poster on here. I’ve never been like everybody else and always felt different, but I’m 33 and with age has come a bit more confidence, so I’m ok with that now.

My emotions are all over the place and it’s getting worse, I either feel pure rage or can’t stop crying. I fly off the handle and the slightest things although they feel huge to me at the time. This usually happens if I feel like someone is taking the piss out of me, I’ll go from 0-100, then I cringe after because I know I’ve made an arse of myself again!

I jump from one topic of conversation to another and my mouth works faster than my brain, it’s almost like my head is full of motors all crashing into each other 😂

My job is one I can cope with so I’m very lucky in that sense but I still dread going in every day. I have to act friendly and welcoming and it’s draining AF! Half the time I’m not even listening to what people are saying to me because I can’t concentrate or am distracted with my own thoughts. I make what I think are the right noises and hope that it’s the appropriate response 🫠

Relationship wise, I avoid it because of the unnecessary stress and drama that I know I couldn’t cope with like a normal person. I wouldn’t talk to anyone about any of this because I’m super sensitive.

Some days I’m super productive and get a huge list of jobs done then others I’m too distracted to actually finish any tasks 🤯
 
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Bitofthebubbly

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Can relate to this thread so much! Been reading for a while but can never figure out what to say myself but I’m going to give it a go. Looking back, I’ve always had ‘issues’ and been a little bit different. There was a period of time in primary school where I was really volatile and would throw chairs across the classroom, hid under tables and refused to come out, hit other children and things like that. At the time it was put down to the fact that my uncle and aunt were splitting up and my cousins, who I was very close to were moving away, and I was reacting badly to that. Which seemed plausible but I think because I was doing fine academically (always been a very average student) it was just brushed off really. I did stop that behaviour and then kind of vanished into the background, I’ve never really felt ‘seen’ if that makes sense.

I’ve always had this annoying habit of leaving things till the last minute. My coursework at secondary school was always done the week/night before, I’d leave it as long as I realistically could and I always managed to just about scrape through and get an average grade. I’m still like this today. I always thought it was just laziness and that I wasn’t a ‘good student’, now I feel I’m not good enough as a person because my house is never tidy and I can’t keep on top of my laundry pile for longer than a week, also had a terrible time with jobs and just can’t seem to cope at all🙃

It’s only over the last few years I started reading into adhd and also autism in women and girls and realised a lot of things especially with regards to add/adhd fit me to the letter. I’m just not quite sure what to do with the information now really. I’m not sure about seeking diagnosis and I don’t like to ‘self diagnose’ but it has given me some insight into why I’m the way I am. There’s also that fear that I am actually neurotypical and am just looking for excuses for being a mess as a person. I’ve only told my partner in real life what I think and I think I’ll keep it that way for now, he seems to get where I’m coming from and has seen how I am for himself for over a decade. But it’s not really something I talk about a lot. I often feel like a duck on water where I seem fine on the surface and even somewhat organised but underneath my legs are working hard to stop me from drowning.

Anyway, it’s so great to read other womens experiences, I feel there’s a lot of us who have slipped through the net. It’s only relatively recently I’ve actually seen it being talked about in the news and things.
 
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hiya_hun

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No, it's fine to ask advice, but just just cause you match the NHS list doesn't mean you have it, as ADHD commonly misunderstood as being about being forgetful & a lack of concentration.

I am just pointing out there are far more behaviours which people with ADHD exhibit and which have to have negatively impacted them all of their lives. As women tend not to cause trouble on school it usually in adulthood when they are diagnosed and this is only in the last 10 years as not much into adult ADHD or ADHD in females was researched in depth before this. But if you have reached adulthood without a diagnoses of ADHD and have not suffered with severe anxiety/depression or have impulsive behaviour which resulted in an addiction, then it is highly unlikely you have it. This is disorder of the brain & without the correct medication, therapy and being thought alternative life skills you won't get to adulthood without a mental illness or an addiction.

I'm sorry if you felt I was rude, but i have had to fight my own corner for so long and I get worked up when I see people saying they have ADHD without a full understanding of what it actually is or how it impacts one's life. I hope I have explained the disorder more in-depth in my previous post. If you do see that you may h alot of what I have stated above then I am more then willing to chat to you further on it, but if you haven't exhibited the behaviours I outlined then it's unlikely you do have ADHD & you may feel more at ease knowing that.
Everything you said in your first post, and this one, im familiar with. I really haven't taken lightly to going to a doctor about my symptoms. I am a 32 year old married woman, I've been to uni and until now I've battled through my working life until I've had to leave my job. Ive read countless articles about ADHD in adult woman and it was from reading all of the information myself I plucked up the courage to contact a doctor when things were getting desperate for me. I sent them the information I had and I have been referred to a specialist. There is nothing more I can do at this point which is why i have sought advice here.

Only my husband and my ex employer knows about this. I said previously on here that I'm scared to even tell my own mum! Because I'm worried that people won't 'think it's real' - I'm saddened that almost immediately im experiencing that exact reaction on this thread

I've taken recreational drugs for my entire adult life and I've smoked weed on a daily basis for as long as I can remember. Not sure if you would class that as addiction or not. I've also had (what i now know) is high anxiety since being a young child.

I experienced problems my entire school life. In high school I was almost sent to a specialist behaviour unit at one point and part of me wonders if I had actually gone then maybe I would of been diagnosed then. But at the same time so much less was known then particularly of ADHD in girls so maybe not.

Can I please ask what you do for a living now and how that works for you because that is what I'm specifically looking for advice on.
 
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I am so glad I’m not alone but so sorry you’ve had the same struggles. Can relate to every word. I felt a bit nervous about sharing because there’s a bit of stigma attached to admitting that you struggle with working, I think some people assume you’re looking for excuses not to work, but I’m glad people on this thread get where I’m coming from. I wish I was one of those people who just got on with work and didn’t let it overwhelm them. Life would be so much easier, we’d have more money, I’d be setting a better example to my kids, I’d worry less about the future: pensions etc.

Literally me. My limit for most jobs is, or was back before kids, about 3 months. After that I tend to start crumbling and getting awful anxiety that would just get worse and worse. Longest I’ve stayed in a job was 9 months and that was because it was temp contract and knew there was an end point. I started to genuinely hate the place towards the end though and it was a struggle to see it through. Felt so ungrateful because it was a decent job and I was lucky to get the experience, but I just hated it to the point of tears every day.

Good luck with your interview. 4 hour shifts definitely sounds like the sort of hours I could cope with. I find long shifts so daunting.

I do the thing where I go back to bed after the school run too, and yes the school run/kid care is literally all I get done in a day too only because like you say it has to be done. It’s such a bad habit I’ve gotten into but sometimes I either can’t deal with all the things I need to do around the house that day or feel terribly depressed so I hide away. Which of course makes everything worse and makes me feel worse, yet I never learn.

It was scary bringing up the work thing I must admit, it’s not something I’ve seen talked about a lot so I honestly thought I was alone in feeling like this and that people would tell me I needed to suck it up and stop being lazy. I’m glad people can relate but it really sucks we feel like this in the first place and it affects our lives so much.
Gosh we could be the same person! I get the same with work and it feels like it's for no reason at all. I just start getting so panicky at work, before work, I'll feel ill at the thought of going. One of my jobs I walked out there and then because I couldn't hold it together another minute! With kids and a messy house as well, if its been an overwhelming day and there still a shift at work to do, it's not happening. I feel much better if I get some cleaning done at night so that it's not there to start the day with in the morning but I've even stopped doing that now. When the depression hits, it's all just impossible isn't it.

Do you struggle with the boring, repetitiveness of jobs/life as well? I hate routine and knowing every day is pretty much the same drives me insane. Its like I want spontaneity, excitement, adventure but also need to stay on the sofa wrapped in a blanket?!
 
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hiya_hun

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I'm a 26 year old woman & was diagnosed with ADHD at 22. I was diagnosed by a psychiatrist who specialised in Adult ADHD. I have noticed in previous posts that people mention about a lack of attention & would like to point out that although attention deficit is in the disorders name, this is only a same part of the disorder and to have ADHD there are quite a number of other behaviours you have to exhibit in childhood and as an adult. Also to be diagnosed, your life has to have been severely & negativity impacted as a child, teen & adult due to your behaviours.

First of all I would like to point out ADHD isn't actually an attention deficit. It is the inability to regulate attention. There will periods you won't concentrate at all & then periods of hyper focus where you will be completely engrossed in something to the point you forget to eat, drink & in general care for yourself. To have ADHD you need both the deficit and the hyper focus.

The second aspect of ADHD is emotional regulation, people both make & female like with attention have difficulty regulating emotions, meaning they feel & express the full extent of an emotion. This will be from childhood, So a child with ADHD's behaviour may look like a tantrum or over excitement, but it's because they feel the full force of an emotion all the time.

Another aspect of ADHD is depression, anxiety, addiction & social ineptness. One or more of these are aspects of ADHD in both men & women. Adults ADHD usually goes hand in hand with depression &/or anxiety. This is due to the inability to regulate emotions & due to the persons brain working much faster. There are also high levels of addictive,risk taking behaviour in people with ADHD such as cigarettes, alcohol, drugs & gambling are all highly to be used , but it can also involved behaviour such as driving at high speeds, having unprotected sex etc. The reason for this people with ADHD are highly impulsive & find it very difficult not become addicted once a behaviour is tried once, as this gives a rush of dopamine which which is a chemical in the brain that people with ADHD lack.

Another aspect of ADHD which also isn't mentioned above is difficulty in social situations. You don't need to be hyper kids with ADHD often tend to be quite introverted in social situations, but social behaviours of people with ADHD appear from the time they are young kids and these behaviours are actually very similar to that of autism or sensory processing disorder. Although people with ADHD are highly creative and tend to excel in the arts, they actually work best in a structured environment with clear set processes & targets, as this allows the ADHD brain to relax, as it does not need to run through scenarios as structure takes away the uncertainty of situations.

As a woman who suffered with mental illness since early teens and suffered with undiagnosed ADHD for the majority of my education, who knows just how difficult a life with ADHD is & to have people not believe it a real disorder or not understand it, I ask not to self diagnose yourself, only an expert in this field can diagnose you & assuming you have it & have coped with on your own without any mental illness, negative behaviour means you don't have it & saying this diminishes the effect this disorder has on the lives of people who actually have it.
Thanks for your input. I'm currently on an 18 month wait list to start the process of being diagnosed as the symptoms have built up to me literally having to leave my job, before I got sacked anyway.

Sorry for speaking up about something before I got a formal diagnosis. With such a long wait in front of me I was just looking for some advice from other people (women) who had gone through it.

I'll crawl back under my rock shall I ......
 
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invisibleotter

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Thanks for your input. I'm currently on an 18 month wait list to start the process of being diagnosed as the symptoms have built up to me literally having to leave my job, before I got sacked anyway.

Sorry for speaking up about something before I got a formal diagnosis. With such a long wait in front of me I was just looking for some advice from other people (women) who had gone through it.

I'll crawl back under my rock shall I ......
No, it's fine to ask advice, but just just cause you match the NHS list doesn't mean you have it, as ADHD commonly misunderstood as being about being forgetful & a lack of concentration.

I am just pointing out there are far more behaviours which people with ADHD exhibit and which have to have negatively impacted them all of their lives. As women tend not to cause trouble on school it usually in adulthood when they are diagnosed and this is only in the last 10 years as not much into adult ADHD or ADHD in females was researched in depth before this. But if you have reached adulthood without a diagnoses of ADHD and have not suffered with severe anxiety/depression or have impulsive behaviour which resulted in an addiction, then it is highly unlikely you have it. This is disorder of the brain & without the correct medication, therapy and being thought alternative life skills you won't get to adulthood without a mental illness or an addiction.

I'm sorry if you felt I was rude, but i have had to fight my own corner for so long and I get worked up when I see people saying they have ADHD without a full understanding of what it actually is or how it impacts one's life. I hope I have explained the disorder more in-depth in my previous post. If you do see that you may h alot of what I have stated above then I am more then willing to chat to you further on it, but if you haven't exhibited the behaviours I outlined then it's unlikely you do have ADHD & you may feel more at ease knowing that.
 
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I completely relate to what everyone has been saying about the work stuff. The feeling so bored and frustrated with routine and mundane life stuff, but also just wanting to stay on the sofa, it’s absolutely mad.

Most of the time I sit and think, fuck, is this my life? Everyday? Forever? And it feels really depressing, it’s like I’m craving adventure and spontaneous things all the time but instead I’m in a never ending cycle of chronic boredom.

My boyfriend asked me what I could do for a hobby or during the day when the girls are at school and I couldn’t tell him, because there is nothing, I get bored of stuff too easily. The only thing I could do all day everyday is shopping and impulsively buying stuff I don’t need, or stuff the kids don’t need. And impulsively eating 😂
 
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I had my diagnosis a few weeks ago. I am not sure how I feel about it tbh. In a way, yes, validated. I wasn't lazy, selfish, thoughtless, careless, sloppy etc. I couldn't have 'just tried harder' or 'applied myself better' or 'exercised some self-control' as a child or a teenager or while I was at university. I'm sad that my life could have been so different. I was considered very bright at school so expectations were high. I didn't meet those expectations and just scraped through all the way to my degree which I very nearly failed.

I supposer it's nice to know that I'm not a complete loudmouth nightmare with no social skills who cries and gets angry at the drop of a hat. Well, I am but it's not really my fault. I was such a naughty child that I really thought I was just an awful person. I overheard adults talking about me, I knew almost everybody around me would prefer it if I wasn't there because I was just so difficult. I knew my siblings hated me for ruining everything. I knew my teachers didn't like me because I shouted out in class and didn't do any work and they knew I could have done well. I knew my university lecturers thought I was wasting a space on a very hard to get on course because I never finished my projects but pulled it together at the last minute.

It's a lot to take in, I thought I'd be pleased to have a diagnosis but I haven't been processing it very well and haven't made my follow up appointment to organise meds etc.

Anyway, just saying hello. I've been lurking here for a while.
 
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Bitofthebubbly

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Does anyone else find they become obsessed with a topic for a while, and then you suddenly lose interest seemingly over night? I’m going through this now and have got it into my head that I really want to learn a new skill, but I’m reluctant because I don’t want to get all set up only to get bored one day and never look at it again. The problem is that with a lot of hobbies you usually have to spend money to get started, and I’ve had plenty of instances in the past where one day this hobby is my life and then the next I’m just not interested but I’ve put money into all the stuff and time into reading up on said hobby, and it’s just really disheartening to not be fussed about it anymore.

I’d love to be able to stick at something, I wonder if it’s a case of me pushing through and forcing myself to stick with it? Maybe the thing will become fun again? I drive myself crazy during the ‘obsessive’ phase reading and watching stuff relating to what ever it is I’m interested in to death and then doing it for a while before I hit a ‘wall’ I guess.
 
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Any other ADHD-ers who feel like everyone hates them? I am convinced that most people find me annoying, incompetent, bland, and somehow like I’m lesser than them.
 
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Bitofthebubbly

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Gosh we could be the same person! I get the same with work and it feels like it's for no reason at all. I just start getting so panicky at work, before work, I'll feel ill at the thought of going. One of my jobs I walked out there and then because I couldn't hold it together another minute! With kids and a messy house as well, if its been an overwhelming day and there still a shift at work to do, it's not happening. I feel much better if I get some cleaning done at night so that it's not there to start the day with in the morning but I've even stopped doing that now. When the depression hits, it's all just impossible isn't it.

Do you struggle with the boring, repetitiveness of jobs/life as well? I hate routine and knowing every day is pretty much the same drives me insane. Its like I want spontaneity, excitement, adventure but also need to stay on the sofa wrapped in a blanket?!
Yes I do struggle with it. The idea that for example I have to keep cleaning my kitchen over and over, sometimes more than once a day just makes me despair. It sounds dramatic but the idea of doing these tasks perpetually for the rest of my life just makes me feel really weird and it’s the same with working. I don’t feel like I have it in me to work until I’m 70 or even for forever? I don’t know how people manage it. I don’t know why I can’t manage it. If I could come into some money somehow and not even have to worry about working then that would be half the battle, but I doubt that’ll ever happen😅

I hate routine, but it’s like I like/need it at the same time. The times I have tried to set myself a checklist for the day, it has worked really well for the week or so I keep it up for but then it comes back to the whole losing motivation and not being able to maintain things issue again. I feel like I need a fucking minder or something to keep me on track. It’s ridiculous. I often think back to how being at school was easier because it was all on rails if that makes sense. Once I got thrust into the real world, it’s been a complete shit show.

Sorry I keep waffling on, don’t meant to!
 
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YouCanCoco

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Hi, just been diagnosed with ADHD and Autism at the grand old age of 45, almost 46! I’ve always known I’m different but had never considered either before this past month. I feel relieved and utterly overwhelmed at the same time. I went the private route as just needed to know once there was any suspicion. What caused me to seek a diagnosis was MTV Teen mum uk! One of the dads found out he had ADHD and something clicked, I went and read about it and just felt like I was reading my life story. No one has ever suggested either before just explained as general anxiety, depression and PTSD (from miscarriages) that I was lazy, disorganised, dopey, over emotional and awkward the list is endless. oh and was once told I might have a personality disorder. Now need to have the medical tests to see if I’m ok to try medication. Feeling hopeful but wary. I hate change and think I’m going to find everything difficult at first but who knows could be the best thing that has ever happened to me.
 
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