Watched her South Africa vlog and remembered why her content is not for me and makes me side-eye those who find it relatable.
1. Crying that much in front of a camera (and a massive audience) is performative, no matter which way you slice it, it is. Humans are always thinking about how they look, sound, etc - we are designed to be self-conscious. Putting a camera in front of yourself when you're that emotional is not helping you be raw and authentic, it's feeding into the need to perform. I am sorry for the heartbreak she's experiencing but it is a new level of narcissism to put minutes of footage that is just you crying to a sad song. Seriously reminds me of a Delaney Rowe tiktok (give it a search, she portrays manic pixie dream girl types and every tiktok could be Jade).
2. She has too many feelings. Sorry if that's rude. Something is definitely not right but I doubt it was the relationship, the country she was in or the lack of crystals/manifestations in her life. She is emotionally all over the place, performing for youtube all the time is clearly confusing her emotions even more and she is self-aware something is not right but is always looking for an external fix.
3. Her video titles for the last 3 yrs have consistently been on theme with "self love", "taking myself out on a date" etc - very much giving single girl energy or someone whose trying hard to look like the cool girl who's OK with casual situationship when she really wants something more. My guess is this other person was gradually fading her out and she has used this SA trip to reclaim the narrative that it was her decision to end things. I don't buy for a second that she kept this relationship on the down-low because she's private. Someone who proclaims living authentically would not be hiding a relationship on their platform - either the relationship was never that deep, or it was only ever that deep for her. Either way it's definitely a healthy decision to leave it behind.
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Definitely. Look at this list of goals she made for 2024:
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I'm just gonna leave this here...