This might be one of the times when people might think she felt guilt, but she follows it with saying J was like that before the feeding school and we always blame ourselves for things that aren't in our control.
J was not like that before the feeding school and she was the only one who had control of this situation. GOSH and his team at his local hospital told her not to do this. She had control, the choice was up to her and she paid thousands to do it. He wasn't fit enough to go over to Austria, that should have been a red flag not to do it but she pushed for him to so the online programme where she is in the UK and the doctors are in Austria. That was even more risky. That should have been another red flag.
Before the feeding school she was claiming he vomited up to 50 times a day. (He would have been in hospital if that was the case) After the feeding school ended she justified making him do it by slipping up and saying J vomited on average once a day (not 50 like she claimed to the media and when she was fundraising) she said during the 56 days he did the feeding programme he only vomited 6 times.
That post is still there. She was then upset he was rushed into hospital and the first thing the doctors did was put him on feeds which made him vomit. She was almost blaming the hospital for putting him back on feeds. I've hid his face, mods can remove if they wish, she has never hid his face and has chosen to share him like this but mods are more than welcome to remove. From these pics you can see why the hospital put him straight onto feeds, you can also understand that if he was starving it might explain why he only vomited 6 times in 56 days. As a nurse you would hope that would have been another red flag, not something to justify why it was good to take him off his feeds and to moan about the hospital putting him back on.
She used to say the feeding school cost double what it did until it the true cost was put on here and then she started saying the right price. There was also a meet up in this country for the feeding plan, she was going to it to find out information properly but said it had been cancelled so went out instead but other SEN parents off insta attended it as it wasn't cancelled whatsoever. Not 100% but I think all those that went chose not to risk it.
Honestly, the feeding programme broke my heart. He was fading away before our eyes and looked so ill.
When she made him lick an oven chip for an Ad I honestly wanted to slap her. Sorry if thats too harsh but I felt sick with worry for that little boy. The weeks leading up to his passing I felt ill and like something really bad was coming.
The other thing that anyone new to this thread should know is that she lied a lot about being a sole carer to J. It just wasnt true. She led people to believe his dad was no where in the picture and had pretty much abandoned him when he had him lots. Weekends. Any time he was in GOSH he was one who stayed with him. She always used it as an excuse to stay in a fancy hotel and go out.
She also hid the fact she was engaged from all her followers. Which was just so she could play the role of poor single mother. She had more help than most people. His dad. His family. Her family. Carers. School. Her fiance. Honestly it was like any time she had to spend alone with him was begrudged.
That photo she is using of J on the slide for her souvenirs people might remember her posting them to her stories at the time. Unless they were following the threads before they wont know what was going on at that point.
People had said she never took him to the park or play area, few days later she takes him. Then we all suspected J wasn't actually with her, she started sharing pics/clips of him that looked pre-recorded, put up pre-recorded ads and tried to make it look like he was with her. His dad dropped her in it by saying he had had J for 10 days. There was no need to hide him going to stay with his daddy, but she didn't like people clocking on to the fact she had 60 hours a week of carers, 35 hours of school, 5 hours estimate for the school transport, her mum had him once a week for a few hours and J's dad had him at weekends often.
So shocked, or am I?! I didn’t see this! Been following her for a while but dipped in and out, she always grated on me, but Jaxon was just an amazing little boy 
