I`m so sorry for what your parents put you through.Please ,never think you`re a "nobody" ,we all have our own gifts in this world.,Just because some of us aren`t academic ,doesn`t mean we have nothing to offer.My eldest was the truly bright one (to coin a phrase) ,but i never let on i felt differently about her sisters.They all have their special ways.My middle girl is the kindest person i can think of ,her younger sister is bossy ,well organised and can run the company she works for with her eyes closed.Neither liked school ,or studies ,even though we encouraged it ,but they found their own paths.The most thing i`m proud of is they are so good to me (and were to their dad when he was alive) ,and they`d help anybody with anything.I bet 100% you`re a nicer person and have empathy towards others now ,due to what you experienced.Take care of you ,and remember ,you always matter.
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