Can she make up her mind- Bali crying to come he cause of COVID, back in Dublin putting up montgages of Bali and "the crew", back in Bali again, we get the "remember that summer in Dublin". Now it's same tit again, the montage of Bali!!! Choose a side!!!!
She clearly doesn’t have anywhere she feels like home and that is sad
Dublin probably reminds her that most people have met someone and have started families and she says that’s “boring” as it’s not something she will probably ever have
Bali is “home” to her but it really is just somewhere to live cheaply in a transient life convincing yourself you are living differently when really you’re in the Ibiza of Asia. Be like a load of Australians moving to Ibiza and saying they were living differently. Bali is in real crisis but you can be sure she won’t be stepping foot there while there are any restrictions.
She clearly has no one in London
Portugal seemed like a good option for her but it might not be seen to be living differently to her
The bottom line is that she realizes her time as earning a living from insta and furnace is coming to an end and she is trying to convince everyone her life is great- like a duck-remaining calm but paddling furiously under water.