Trigger warning - the mother of all rants
I've just watched this cunts stories from last night and I am actually incandescent with rage. I am beyond furious. Is this absolute bleeping looper for real? She absolutely cannot be serious... Christmas can be hard for everyone bla bla bla let me talk about the most common bleeping things that can happen to a woman and cry about it under the guise of breaking a non existent stigma. Yes Sarah, Christmas is hard for many and between the tit few years, sickness, illness, tragedy, cost of living crisis where people are choosing between eating and heating, that poor woman who was missing, found dead, leaving 4 kids without a mother just before Christmas. It's a dark time, and while I am a firm believer in being authentic and true to yourself on social media, this bleep coming on fake crying over a rather sad life event that thousands ensure is not fun. It's miserable. People want escapism. Not this fat wanker blubbing.
I try and keep the bright side out but at the moment it's been bleeping hard. My only sister has been in hospital 4 weeks today with complications of stage 4 cancer, she's horribly ill and I am frankly bleeping terrified this is her last Christmas. Her cancer could have been avoided if she had had a smear but owing to another aspect of her life , she didn't, and this happened. I'm not on my Insta bawling about breaking the stigma of smear tests bla bla bla. Nope. Firstly, because my sister means too much to me for me to use her situation to drive engagement, and I'm also conscious that no one wants to heary misery in the middle of their own room and gloom.
I'm trying to hard to hold it together, this year we realised that kids won't happen for us. We both have issues and whilst I was never mad gone on kids, it would have been nice. We could have had IVF but as it's an issue on both our parts and I'm not dying with a yearning for a kid, I don't want to push fate or take someone who is desperate for a child's place. It's more fomo on my part and it's not fair on someone with a genuine need for a child. It's still tit though that we can't just shag and it happen and it's been tough to accept in a way that that's it. My gynae issues are excruciating, and I had one op that they fucked up a few weeks ago and they messed the procedure up and was re-opped last week. Sadly it hasn't sorted the issue and I'm so still in excruciating pain. Yeah I've had a grumble about it on insta but I'm not going to cry. In fact I started to tear up and I stopped recording, deleted the story and waited cos no one needs to see me snotting down the phone.
My parents are beside themselves, between my sister being very very ill and me having a few issues, my mum is spread thinly trying to sort things and be there for us both and my sister's kids. My husband is struggling severely with his mental health from being in a coma a few years ago and has had a relapse with panic attacks and night terrors so I'm trying to deal with that and all else. I'm on anti-anxiety pills and they haven't been doing what they used to as there's so much going on... But duck it. I'm all for talking about actual mental health issues and breaking that actual stigma, but I will not dump myself into my stories and tit on about all my problems because it's hard enough for everyone at the moment.
I'm so sorry to moan and offload here but life is bleeping hard and I am struggling and this bleeping bleep has one beautiful child who she is abusing and sending off at any given opportunity, she has her health, keet is grand, her family are grand. She's had a bleeping miscarriage , which yes, it's tit, but it's also bleeping life, and is abusing this for attention and for engagement and she's dragging people even further down.
Sarah, all those views are hate views . people watch you cos they can't believe what a massive, farcical bleep you are. And I had a look at your exs missus new page and his beautiful baby daughter is a absolutely bleeping delightful. Unlike you. Stop snotting and get the duck over yourself