It could be me who’s written this, I’m exactly the same! I wasnt disappointed, just super shocked and terrified. Not planned and know I should be grateful, but like you I just didnt see it in my future. I was expecting the menopause and looking for a wreck to do up in Portugal! Trying desperately to bond. But I’m only 17 weeks so barely any bump and obviously no movements, I keep reading about the rush of love and hoping I get that (at some point). My midwife said talking to the baby helps but I just feel stupidAhhh I am the same. My baby wasn’t planned, I was really disappointed when I found out I was pregnant, it’s a taboo subject which comes with lots of guilt but it wasn’t in my short term goals.
I would open my inbox to you if I could. I spent most of my first trimester really unhappy. I’ve accepted it now but I can’t say excited is how I’d describe it… I also hate the movement and I’m not connected to my bump at all.
I chose not to terminate as I did want a child down the line and I have such a good support network and my partner was over the moon. I’m a first time mum x