I am now 29wks with my first baby and it was a planned pregnancy with my partner of 10yrs. It was definitely what we wanted and yet I wee-d on that stick and went into total dread about what we’d done.
I spent easily 8 weeks panicking everyday that I’d ruined everything. There was nothing wrong with our lives, why have we done this?!
I have never felt so frightened and alone in my whole life. My partner (who is very level headed and keeps me sane
) told me that it would be fine. But I felt so guilty that I had essentially “talked him into it” (I hadn’t it was a joint decision) and then wanted to back out.
I didn’t dare speak to anyone about it but eventually talked to my sister who told me that she had felt exactly the same way!
After that initial few weeks I am now really looking forward to the baby and don’t regret it at all. I’ve now spoken to a few people about the way I felt and they’ve told me something similar.
a lot of us feel like this but don’t dare tell anyone because you’ll sound terrible if you do!