Hello, long time lurker here but this is my first post. I've deleted and retyped this many times, unsure if I should post or not.
I've followed PTWM since the Mothercare story. At the time I was going through a DV situation myself and although I never contacted her I found that her stories gave me hope that there was light at the end of the tunnel. I've never donated to her paypal (although I did buy her book) but I read it as though it was funds for helping warriors, not to fund her own lifestyle. I came here after the outburst from her on IG and I'm so glad I did, my eyes have been well and truly opened.
Samantha, please don't give up hope that your boys will come home to you. I can't say too much for fear of my ex husband reading this and making life difficult again, but I've been in a similar situation to yours and its so draining to have to constantly fight for the truth when others are actively trying to bring you down. Fortunately I now have 50/50 custody which my ex is currently sticking to, but I live with the nagging worry that one day he will just decide not to bring my child home and I'll be once again subjected to the truly awful treatment he's put me through before. Stay strong, don't give up and hold your head high that you are the better person here and doing all you can.
I'd like to say I've a good sixth sense for when things are not right and I'm not fooled easily, but I was completely taken in by PTWM. It's made me question a lot of things in my life, if I've got her so wrong then what else have I got wrong? Yet I can't quite bring myself to unfollow her, maybe I'm just clinging on to the tiniest bit of hope that she will turn out good in the end. Hopefully she will address the paypal situation and apologise, but as time goes on I'm not holding out much hope of that happening.