Oh for sure, it was always quite a shock visiting friends houses with parents who had their own fulfilling lives and hugged, nourished their children with opportunities and kindness. In fact, my parents used to mock my friend's parents, and also had this quirk where they made themselves seem more cultured, loving, educated, sporty etc than in reality they actually were, insecurity maybe?Does anyone else feel this real emptiness and longing for something they never had?
when I was growing up, I saw my classmates being picked up from school by their parents and I heard them talking about their happy home lives and I used to feel so jealous, I just wanted what they had.
I’ve posted my story earlier in this thread, but my mum brought me up alone and I had a difficult and unloving relationship with both parents.
even now when I look at happy families or when I see pictures of my old classmates with their families, I just feel sick, I just want what they had so badly. I just always feel so empty. I have a longing for something I’ll never have.
I guess the biggest hurdle in my life right now is accepting that my mother will never change as a person, and I'm only hurting myself by longing & hoping she does.