jeez, I feel bad for her. This was such a personal video from Millie. I don't think she has processed what has happened to her and losing her mum, which is such an awful thing. It sounds like she hasn't really even spoken to anyone about it professionally, which I think she would really benefit from.
in the video she basically says:
- she feels like she has lost herself a bit recently
- feeling numb and doesn't know what it's coming from, mostly from losing her mum.
- but also there's been other things that have happened since
- living in denial a bit, feeling lonely etc.
- sleeping all day, not wanting to socialize, just going out and getting drunk (to feel more numb)
- disconnected from reality, not feeling any connections and pushing people away from fear of losing them
- social media is a scam
- saying she wants to get away from youtube for a bit
- wondering if her friends really care
- isolating herself alot more
- bad memory, and mentioning psycosis?!
- shes also crying throughout the vid
obviously sounds like she is going through some really bad depression, grief, and trauma, and has not really dealt with it, just pushed it under the rug. I think she would benefit from taking a break from social media, focusing on herself, going to therapy, being around family etc. I also really feel for her because this is something I have struggled with and feeling numb and I can't even imagine going through all this and being an 'influencer' and the pressure of putting it all online and on youtube. poor girl, you can't deny that is a horrible thing to go through <3