I could have wrote this myself. Even with family I am always the one making the effort. A few years ago I made the decision to stop bothering and literally heard from/saw no one except my husband and people at work.I have never felt as lonely as I do now and have been feeling the same for the last 9 months or so.
No one ever seems to want stay friends with me, never make the first contact with me, never invites me anywhere. It always has to be me who texts first or asks to meet up.
One friend totally cut me off a few years ago and to this day I can’t work out what happened as she literally disappeared over night.
I don’t do anything or go anywhere apart from work and my house.
I go to bed early most nights as even my husband doesn’t seem interested in being around me.
I’m a really friendly person and love a chat and a laugh so I can’t work out why no one seems to like me.
I've often wondered if it's possible to fade away from loneliness? And would anyone even notice?
Don't get me wrong, I like my own company but sometimes I think I would be nice to have someone other than my husband to speak to.