I keep trying to work out how her mind’s working.
For a decade she’s been told she’s doing amazing work and that she’s a wonderful person for helping so many others. Just look at the sycophantic replies to any of her tweets; one of the most used adjectives used to describe her is ‘good’. I think she fully believes it every time someone tells her she’s “one of the good ones” and that people shouldn’t have a go at her because she “does so much good” and so on.
Also see the encouragement of parents, school ('gifted'), telling her she did brilliantly in her 11+ (but not sending her there), probably the first high school - then the shock of finding out she wasn't the best at reading and writing in the room at grammar school, then the ego boost of a well paid job via Pa H, then the reality shock of not actually being able to do it all when childcare (ie, his father) wasn't able for very good reason to look after the kid anymore and work not actually being that keen on her after all - then the friend getting her the paper job, then some appreciation for the writing, complete with arse licking publishers, then the media coverage, sponsorship deals and the exceedingly rich girlfriend probably praising her like she did her own toddler - and then the crash and burn when she fucked up with the Ivan abuse. Every time she was praised, it taught her to keep doing those things, right down to being an irritating little child being indulged in her 20s. As soon as somebody in public or private voices disquiet or unhappiness with her behaviour, she flips out because she's been conditioned to expect fulsome praise for everything she does.
She truly believes she’s good and therefore can do no wrong. And if she is aware of doing something that could be construed as bad or a little bit naughty, she thinks “Well, I’m a good person all the time, so what harm can this little thing do?” and her behaviour will be defended by the same people who always tell her how amazing she is and her goodness battery gets fully recharged once more.
It's what those people always said to her and probably used exactly the same reasoning to justify their own behaviour. 'Oh, I'm a nice person, this cocaine that's been smuggled in the intestines of a trafficked woman and then accounted for 30 deaths of mostly brown, black and poor people before it went up my nose is just a little naughty treat, darling. We're allowed some treats, aren't we?'.
Of course, she could just be totally manipulative, devious and conniving. Nobody wants to think that, though. I don’t want to. The natural human response is to give someone the benefit of the doubt but I’m finding it almost impossible to do that now, especially where Patreon is concerned.[
She's been taught to behave like that to get rewards of praise and presents. And when she doesn't get them, she freaks out and steps up the childish behaviour as that's always worked in the past. Because she's not doing anything different. It's just not seen as charmingly adorable when she's looked at as a fully grown adult rather than a child.
TL;DR: Jack believes her own hype. Maybe. 
Because she's been trained like a Spaniel to expect praise and treats for doing exactly the same things.
The only person who probably tried to bring her back to earth a little was her Mum. And we know how harsh she can be to her. And then the various exes probably started to try to do it, but failed because she had other places - online, the publishers, other coke addled media twats - where they'd say she was so refreshingly authentic and fascinatingly gauche, so they left. And she's stuck alone with people she knows deep down don't really give a fuck about her other than as a mere curiosity. Which doesn't give her the comfort and reward of feeling protected and safe like a child, with almost unquestioning adoration and gifts. But the gifts and compliments are still a slight taste of what she actually wants. Which also probably accounts for all the spending - she's buying herself presents because nobody else is there to do it, much less do nice things for her just because they're nice and love her.
at the idea of some one who’s forgotten they are even paying for her patreon suddenly receiving a huge box of beige postcards randomly in the post
