Thank you I loved them both so much and I believed that love would glue us all together. A little naive of me! It’s been several years since it came to a screeching halt, and I’m living a much calmer life now where I don’t have to try and cut myself in half to please two people. Not sure if I’d ever be able to date again while my sons still young, that will be the next test to see how far I’ve come.Oh my goodness please release your guilt. What you felt at that time was the most natural, HUMAN thing, and I admire you for being so self-aware of your emotions and inner conflict, and even more for doing what you believed had to be done to preserve your sanity and the safety of your Ioves. I hope things have gotten FAR easier.