Yes I'm waiting around but I have nothing else to do. I'm not going anywhere. I want to stay in this house if I can, I love it here. If he decides in 6 months time that he wants to come back I'd let him. I'm certainly not going to be looking for another relationship after being with him for so long. It's not a matter of moving on for me, it's a case of learning to cope with my new life for the time being. I can't move on just like that after 13 years when I know that the person I love isn't well. I know that everyone will tell me I need to move on but it's only been 6/7 weeks since I've had the biggest shock of my life and I'm still processing it.
You are doing just fine as you are right now like you said, you're learning to live this new way, with no intention of making a new life/moving on just yet. You know your husband, not us, so if you really feel like he's not well, then only you can make the choice to stay around. It's been 6/7 weeks and we are in a pandemic. You are handling it as well as you can right now (which I think your doing OK ) xx