Hello!
Hope no one minds me joining in this thread. Recently broke up with my partner. We were long distance, him Manchester, me London.
Lots of red flag behaviour that I just ignored but him repeatedly showing as active on every platform but not having the ‘energy’ to reply to me, then forgetting my birthday, was the final straw.
He's since got loads of new girls he’s added on Facebook. It’s just gross. He made no attempt at all to save us. I’m trying to remember it is all for the best and I chose to end it. But some days are unbearable.
sending you all love. X
I don’t know if this helps anyone but I found it really theraputic to write down every reason in detail that the relationship ended. I keep it in iPhone notes and make sure to repeatedly look at it especially if I’m missing him and wanting to make contact.
These were my reasons feel free to use as a template:
-the person I fell in love with was kind, empathetic, funny, generous, loyal, always there for me and others, attentive, charming, generally very consistent.
-the person I broke up with was hot and cold, snappy, inconsistent, manipulative, often very selfish, complacent, apathetic, disrespectful, at times cruel, unable to communicate, unable to meet almost any of my needs.
-I felt I put in the majority of work to sustain the relationship in the final months
-I felt I put in the majority of the work to make up after any disagreements/fights
-intermittently made effort with me as and when it suited you. Lack of consistency.
-silent treatment / ignored me as and when it suited you including ignoring messages / not returning phone calls.
-very little concern for my needs or will only meet my needs as and when it suits you OR when meeting my needs ALSO met your needs eg sex
-inappropriate/worrying attitude towards sex and sex being used at inappropriate times.
-became complacent / apathetic within our relationship. You got very comfortable and change in attitude.
-Caring for your dad used as an excuse almost constantly for why you cannot meet my needs or why you behaved poorly. If not your dad, your own mood is used as to why you can’t be there for me or put anything towards our relationship. Always an excuse, never ownership of behaviour/willingness to change.
-struggled with proper apologies. Always sorry with caveat. No ownership.
-unable or almost completely unwilling to see things from my point of view.
-constant disrespect which intensified since late jan:-
-referring to my vagina as a c*nt on two occasions whilst sexting
-inappropriate and worrying attitude towards sex
-ignoring me but being able to engage with others online, in-front of me at times in groups we were in mutually
-commenting on other women’s photos knowing I’d see.
-telling me to duck off and swearing at me repeatedly when mad
-losing temper / snapping at me repeatedly
-forgetting my birthday
-calling me an old witch on my birthday over the phone
-manipulative / gaslighting behaviour on numerous occasions eg saying you have always called my vagina a c*nt when turned on - when the first time this ever happened was in jan, saying you get enough ‘behaviour’ off your dad, you don’t need it off me, sending me photographs of your dad unwell during conflict to deflect from your own crappy behaviour and in an attempt me make me feel sympathy for you.
-telling me to ‘get a hobby’
-‘jokingly’ repeatedly that I have no friends hense why I call you.
-mocking my self harm asking me if I self harmed using a butter knife.
-calling me a ‘lunatic’
-telling me that I talk tit on the phone snd it’s the same stuff over and over and right now with your dad you can’t be dealing with it
-unable to take any criticism aimed at you without losing your temper or directing it all back at me telling me I’m not perfect, which no I’m not, which I admit and own.
-will give insults / make jokes but cannot take it back
-all your needs constantly surpass mine and everything is brought back to your needs / own life.
-feeling I was not allowed to voice any needs of my own or issues within the relationship without being totally attacked for having needs / wants. The only wants and desires I am allowed are sexual. Walking on egg shells constantly to try to be happy / avoid conflict so basically suppressing all my needs/wants. Getting very little out of the rship myself.
-telling me I’m needy.
-you feel you have to punish me as a means of getting control over me, eg: ‘you’ve misbehaved I will not tell you my positive news now that I have time off college as I’m now in a bad mood.’ Or ‘I was going to come down to see you but now you’ve ‘acted up’ I won’t.’ Another example is that we argue which creates anxiety and to maintain control you keep the argument / silent treatment going for as long as possible. You’re reasoning is that me voicing concerns or being upset warrants you punishing me.
-creating jealousy liking / loving / commenting other women’s photos on fb etc knowing it made me uncomfortable and I don’t like it
-you tell me it’s ‘creepy and weird’ me ‘stalking’ you on Facebook. You don’t acknowledge any of your behaviour that has led me to feel so insecure and paranoid I’m doing this as creepy or weird. Or that how you’ve acted as a boyfriend isn’t really acceptable. You don’t question why your girlfriend has gone from feeling quite secure in herself to an insecure paranoid mess.
-You seem to like me feeling para /anxious /insecure/ jealous because you were unwilling to change behaviours / didn’t see anything wrong with your behaviour you just patched things up when they were brought up / or argued with me and then intensified the behaviours that created my insecurity /anxiety. No intention of fixing things or finding cures to move relationship forward.
-no discussion/ inaction about where we are going in the future and long term/ where will we live / family life etc just coasting. Want some direction/ movement from you even in the way of convo of what direction our lives are heading. Hints are dropped that you will never leave manch, and don’t ever want to commit which sets off alarm bells