Just wanted to come back and thank those of you for the kind words last night. I actually did work up the courage to contact SHOUT and just having someone say to me "that sounds like a lot to handle all at once" and that "it makes sense to feel overwhelmed right now" and to just validate my feelings made me feel lighter. I actually started to fall asleep whilst chatting to them because I felt like I wasn't on my own and that my current feelings arent just me being dramatic like what is put on me constantly.
Whilst all of my problems are still there, just having someone listen who was on my side made the world of difference last night. Thank you for the encouragement, you're a special lot![Red heart :heart: ❤](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/gh/joypixels/emoji-assets@5.0/png/64/2764.png)
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Whilst all of my problems are still there, just having someone listen who was on my side made the world of difference last night. Thank you for the encouragement, you're a special lot
![Red heart :heart: ❤](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/gh/joypixels/emoji-assets@5.0/png/64/2764.png)
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You have put into words exactly how I feel about talking to someone professionally about my problems. The thought of opening a can of worms and the effect that could potentially have on me is terrifying. I did a couple of sessions of therapy about 18 months ago but it started getting abit too close to the mark so I gave up rather than persevered.Oh this is exactly how I am, its an awful feeling. I'm so sensitive, always on high alert and thats absolutely exhausting, Ive come to realise its a self defense mechanism. Ive gone through alot of shit in my life as Im sure many of us have. I've been on medication here and there but never had therapy. The reason for that is, Im absolutely petrified! Petrified of opening that can of worms and then spiralling to the point I cant get myself back out once I start talking about it. I think you're all so brave just the fact you're having therapy. I can't even bring myself to do that.