Hard day - lost a patient and I’ve been crying since I got home because I keep thinking is there anything else I could’ve done to stop it It’s days like these when I hate living by myself. Cos I just get home and start spiralling without anyone to debrief with
Thanks beaut, I’ve had a lazy night on the sofa with my cat and already in bed ready to roll again tomorrow. Don’t have the luxury of getting in my head about this now I’m the only nurse
Sorry to bring the vibe down guys, just feel a bit lost!
It's hard when you have to handle the aftermath of everything on your own. Also hard not to go through the 'what ifs' and find ways to blame yourself, even if you know there is nothing that you could have done. I'm sorry you've had a rough day.
I treat some patients who are very sick and while I don't deal first-hand with death, it is an aspect of my job that I think about a lot. For me, it's because I'm working in the US (may be the same in other countries) and I feel like no doctor/practitioner wants to have a conversation about death with a patient & we keep treating people until their death when they would be better off having a higher quality of life without intervention or other care.
Sorry the tangent! You're not alone in this and not dragging anyone down.