i know I’m new here but I have kept up (I think) with peoples stories. I honestly know how you’re feeling right now, as unfortunately going through it myself & it’s very fresh & it’s so so
tit. No one can tell you what’s “normal” in how you’re feeling - they’re your feelings which you’re entitled to feel. Take one day at a time & try your best to keep yourself busy. I don’t have any magic words or advice that makes it stop hurting (I wish I did) but please do look after yourself. No man is worth your own mental health & as hard as it is not to nose dive (currently trying to stop myself doing exactly this) try find that strength. Allow yourself to go through the motions & get upset but also try do some things to improve your mood like exercise, hobbies, reading etc. it’s very cliche but time is what will make you better & I have to remind myself of all this.But also, if you feel like you are really struggling, please reach out to your GP or a charity to get some professional support.
sending you lots of love, you’ll get through it in time but I know it’s hard
xx