I don't follow her as closely as many of you but when I see things popping off on here, I'm definitely straight onto her page to see what's up.
What I was struck by today was how so much of what she does - the DIY, the decorating, the early nights (and sometimes early mornings!), the projects, the shopping, the shocking ig addiction - It all seems to me to be in an effort to never be alone with her thoughts.
She's one of the many people who are a casualty of the misperception that self-worth is measured by productivity, so she's always seeking outlets for her manic energy in an effort to self-soothe and reassure herself that she's worth something by maintaining a state of busyness.
She can't even quietly get herself ready for the day, running through the plans for the day internally like we all do, she's got to say it out loud. To "an audience". Otherwise how will anyone know how busy she is and how productive she's been??
Obv she's also addicted to the validation and adoration she gets from ig, and the high she gets from shopping/ consumption, the bragging makes her feel bigger & better, etc...
I wonder what she's avoiding in the quiet times? Loneliness? Sadness? Lack of personal fulfilment? Regrets? Grief? Dissatisfaction?