I’ve actually deleted Instagram due to personal problems in my own life but if she is posting about mourning her career I do really resonate with her.
I feel like I need to tell my own story to back me up-
I trained to be a paediatric nurse and after 2 years on a foundation degree to get onto the 3 year BA HONS (and was absolutely smashing my degree with firsts in absolutely everything and was an amazing nurse especially working with children) I had to leave my degree, one assignment short of being qualified due to having a very traumatic miscarriage that left me unable to be around children and very suicidal, with no energy left in me for myself let alone patients and their families.
I was supposed to take a break but didn’t know if I’d ever be able to return due to infertility and the effect it was having on my MH, and during my break have decided to emigrate to Australia as this is what is best for my marriage and life.
This means I have to completely leave my career behind. My friends are now qualifying and it is such a horrible feeling to know I completely failed at my career, even though I know that I chose that - I feel like I had no choice and it was the hand I was dealt. My paediatric nursing career was obviously supposed to be just a life lesson and part of my past but I am still mourning it, and all the time, effort, and life I missed out on because I was an adult student.
I don’t agree with a lot of what she does but I do really resonate with the mourning of a career, even if it seems like it was a choice, it’s not always as black and white as it seems and nursing is much more emotionally taxing than people realise - it’s not always possible to be what the patients need if you have your own stuff going on unfortunately.