I’ll probably be taking time off this thread for a while, I went to the gynaecologist yesterday and was diagnosed with cervical cancer as he found a large mass in my cervix which will likely require radiation and chemo. I’m in a state of shock tbh and asking myself why me? Because of Easter I won’t hear from the doctor till my case is discussed next Friday and I have the agonising 2 week wait for a mri to stage the cancer and a ct scan to see if it’s spread. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone not even Sarah, but if she is that concerned with her butchered insides she needs to stop rearranging her appointments for holidays (I have to cancel mine now now). I was stupid to not have a smear due to health anxiety and a traumatic experience and now I’m worried I might die.
Please don’t blame yourself for this. You were NOT stupid. Health anxiety and issues surrounding a traumatic experience are NOT your fault. You did your best, I’m sure. There needs to be more done to support people with this procedure who have had a traumatic experience not just dismissing it then if something happens blaming them. I’m sure some random telling you that online will help
![Face with rolling eyes :rolling_eyes: 🙄](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/gh/joypixels/emoji-assets@5.0/png/64/1f644.png)
BUT it is true. You need to concentrate on your health and getting better. The two week wait can feel like two years. If you can, do some nice things for YOU during that time, spend a day as a tourist where you live, looking at those things you miss because you live there, even if you live somewhere tourists don’t go, hunt down a museum and lose yourself in the past.... But please no more beating yourself up.
I understand wanting to stay away, but remember we are all here. Mean evil old haterz and trollz that we are hiding out in our parents dusty basements on a dusty website (here’s an activity for you - how does a website become dusty?!
![Winking face :wink: 😉](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/gh/joypixels/emoji-assets@5.0/png/64/1f609.png)
). I’m aware I just told you to get out of yours, scary stuff...
Good luck and sorry if I sound like your mum!
- x x -
Sarah, this is what happens when you have medical issues. This is what should be happening with your children’s medical issues. You do not prioritise your husbands or your selfish needs. You prioritise them, you cancel holidays, you move birthdays... You’re all extremely unhealthy oth your lifestyle choice of disappearing on ‘holidays’ and need to sort yourselves out before life happens and forces that on you because there’s no excuse at all for you not sorting it all out. None.