I'm just catching up, so interesting to read everyone's hobbies and stuff! I also love Lush
I actually just got a body scrub from there and it's amazing. I put it on dry then rinse it off in the shower. I was gushing about it the other day (sorry) to the person in Lush saying it's the best thing I've ever bought for my body. I'm going to Lush today funnily enough to get a bubble bar for later.
My hobby is a very niche style of dance, called locking. I've been doing it for ten years but dancing for much longer. It's a shame I can't link to any of my own videos, but these guys, Hilty and Bosch, are two of my favourites.
It's a really funky, characterful dance but technically harder than it looks. I was in a hip hop dance company for a while based at the Barbican, which was extremely stressful. We had 12 hour rehearsal days and I didn't really enjoy the style of dance too much. I lasted a couple of years and then left. I'm much happier now I just do locking and tap. I also love swimming and usually go 2-3 times a week, but we have the London Aquatic Centre on our doorstep so we're really lucky there.
I totally relate to
@enasharples and
@GoLibrarianPoo about feeling unheard in the past and finding my voice. This is something I've only started to do very recently. There are/were a couple of people in my life who seemed to think it was okay to tell me what to do, tell me I was wrong for what I was feeling. I was constantly invalidated. Over small things as well as big things. One of my problems was that I used language that gave them the 'okay' to 'negotiate' with me.
For example, a very small thing - one person and I were walking through Covent Garden a while ago, and he was going full speed ahead. I literally broke out in a sweat trying to keep up with him. I asked him to slow down. He said 'this isn't fast'. I said 'it's fast to me, I can't keep up'. He said 'yes you can'. I said 'please, slow down'. Now I've learnt to quickly identify my boundary (I am going to walk at this speed) and communicate it ("You can walk that fast if you want, I'll see you in a bit when I'm caught up.")
The same with my diet. I avoid certain things because it's easier to maintain my weight that way. I've sat at dinner tables and declined something and people have started with 'is that all you're gonna eat?' or my favourite, from my 300-lb aunt 'you can eat that, it's not bad for you'. My response is to
explain why I don't eat that, but all that does it open it up for debate. Now I don't explain. I simply say 'I don't discuss my diet'. And shut it down. I don't even say 'actually, I'd prefer not to discuss my diet'. It's too soft. I have to be firm. I've taken enough
tit over the years.
It's still a learning process for me and sometimes I'm not very good at it. But I spent so long trying and trying to explain my feelings and defend myself, only to feel like I was being totally ignored. Then I realised I don't owe anyone an explanation. If I don't eat x, I don't eat x, and don't need anyone's approval!
@Bastion I'm glad you have ACAS on the case, that sounds shady AF.