Sending you a big hug. I understand exactly how hard it is suffering from depression and anxiety because I struggle too. I'm also on the happy pills after years of struggling, going on them and then taking myself off them to recently going back on them. I would just like to say well done you, well done for noticing that you need help and being brave enough to go get it. Unfortanetly I've tried multiple times to go to therapy but I really can't bring myself to do it, so again bloody good on you.
Keep going, keep taking your pills, keep getting up every morning and if you feel like you're breaking jump on here and post saying how you're feeling. Nobody will find you annoying or attention seeking, someone will reply and someone will try to give you support. You are not alone