I was about to reply on the last thread to someone noticing how gleeful Sarah seemed at the prospect of family food restrictions, because InToLeRaNcEs.
I can’t bring myself to rewatch but I’m pretty sure she says as much in that sad, sad vlog. The concept of substituting and eliminating foods makes her feel like her old self and she’s absolutely loving it. Even better that she has what she sees as a plausible excuse to restrict everyone in her family under the guise of some sort of treatment for one of her children.
Because now it’s totally not disordered right??? It’s disordered behaviour but for a defensible (lol) reason. Let’s just forget about all the comments telling her that what she’s doing will cause more harm than good (to the entire family, not just Malcom).
This really goes to show that Sarah’s ED mindset has never left. In true recovery you learn to hear that disordered voice, identify triggers that make it chatter, and ignore it, or do the opposite of what it’s telling you to do (ie restrict, rationalise, normalise). All Sarah’s done (for years, but right now blatantly so) is give her ED voice a megaphone, and painted it in pink sparkles to make it appear less toxic.