This gave me the reality check I needed. I'm currently cutting so I keep close track of what I eat, today I weighed my bleeping lettuce. Like what the duck. I have a history of ED so calorie counting is like a walk on a tight rope across a deep pit. Seeing the tiny portions she eats and the little bowl made me realize how fucked up it is to restrict yourself so much. I'm still trying to lose a bit of weight but I'll up my daily calorie goal, might be slower but I won't lose my mind or weigh my vegI think what really gets me about her ED behaviors (tiny bowls and spoons for example) is that, as a *health influencer* she is normalizing these things. I used to run a healthy living instagram (which was literally just me trying to guise a relapse as healthy), i followed a ton of accounts, all who adapted similar behaviors and if someone called them out on it, they would just say something along the lines of "Oh, I just like using small silverware<3" or whatever.
A lot of these accounts genuinely were run by people trying to be healthy, who didn't have eating disorders. However, seeing their favorite health influencers acting out ED behaviors with a smile and pretending that nothing is wrong made them view this as normal. All of this just makes it even harder than it already was to notice disordered behavior since so much of it lines up with what is recommended by diet culture (or really fitspo/healthy living culture nowadays)
Fuuuuuck she's neck deep in an eating disorder, holy duck. That, almost word for word is what I used to do in the midst of my anorexia. Eating off dessert plates because they were smaller, avoiding pasta like the plague, most nights I only had broth for the taste, told people I was gluten intolerant so I got out of eating birthday cake, had one apple with cinnamon for breakfast and pretended like it was filling, no fats whatsoever, no dessert, only cut apples. Also one thing I just thought of that I did OBSESSIVELY was look at recipes online. For hours every night. Just to look at food. What does Sarah do? She runs a cooking app. A tit one, granted, but she's been hyper-focussed on food, food content and cooking for as long as I've known her.Sorry to return to this, but I wonder if someone who is active on reddit would post about these facts for some of her stans to see. Because she has always showcased a ton of dangerous ED tricks:
- large bowls for salad, tiny bowls and utensils for everything else (a photo of her salads vs that oatmeal bowl would show it best)
- limited food groups (spinach, sweet potato, coconut, broth, sometimes chicken)
- multiple self-diagnosed intolerances that change according to her narrative
- she used to put cucumber and ice cubes in her protein shakes instead of milk to save calories
- that banana and cucumber with cinnamon concoction that was posted up-thread (because she thinks cinnamon will speed up her metabolism)
- swapped her regular cappuccino for LB with almond milk (going from 100 cals per cup to 20 cals)
- eating chopped fruit with a dash of milk for her dessert when her family was eating regular pudding
Those are just off the top of my head, and I'm sure that you guys can point out a lot more, but there's enough in there to show that she is not the health guru she claims to be, and she certainly does not eat as she claims to, either.
Since all donations are the exact same amount, I wonder if that was just the maximum anyone was able to donate?
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