Jonathan's always reeked of desperation: to be liked, accepted, popular...
He'll never take his own advice though and be true to himself, irrespective of whatever gender he chooses to identify as.
He's being putting on a show for 10 years; we're not his minions, it's plain for us to see his whole demeanour / attitude changes when the camera turns on him. He'll never accept his true self as this means he'll have to acknowledge all his wrongdoings and more importantly to him, confront what it is that he lacks (friends and to be liked; which I think he is desperate for and why he overcompensates with his fans).
But he'll never be liked, not really. That's what terrifies him, and why he spends most of his time alone drinking. His wife and children don't like or respect him, not really. They definitely won't in the future. He's alienated his family. He has no friends. He's destined to be lonely, and it must kill him inside that it's because of his actions; because of him, not because of anyone else. He won't ever admit to that. Also - no-one likes a child exploiter.
He'll never take his own advice though and be true to himself, irrespective of whatever gender he chooses to identify as.
He's being putting on a show for 10 years; we're not his minions, it's plain for us to see his whole demeanour / attitude changes when the camera turns on him. He'll never accept his true self as this means he'll have to acknowledge all his wrongdoings and more importantly to him, confront what it is that he lacks (friends and to be liked; which I think he is desperate for and why he overcompensates with his fans).
But he'll never be liked, not really. That's what terrifies him, and why he spends most of his time alone drinking. His wife and children don't like or respect him, not really. They definitely won't in the future. He's alienated his family. He has no friends. He's destined to be lonely, and it must kill him inside that it's because of his actions; because of him, not because of anyone else. He won't ever admit to that. Also - no-one likes a child exploiter.