She changed her mind and did go live, and guess what the main topic of conversation was? Yup Adrian
but she's so strong, so independent, him leaving was the best thing that ever happened to her, she's so much happier without him..... Yet is so obsessed she can't stop talking about him, lying about him, she even claimed he was emailing her as she was live.
Im not going to repeat everything she said about him because its boring and it's all lies.
She has got approval from Amazon to be an associate which means she will recommend products she uses and likes, add a link to it and if people buy it she will earn money.
She has been speaking to her neighbours brother who is an accountant and he says she did her books all wrong, she hasn't declared everything properly, she can claim tax back from everything as it's all her business so the lorry, everything she buys for the horses etc her Internet because she only got it for nvf etc
So basically she's going to resubmit her paperwork and he reckons she will get all the tax back she paid £3500 and lots more but its a minefield.
She's still livid about not getting a mothers day card so ranted for ages about it, the school said they did have stuff for the kids to make cards if they wanted to but Jo told them that they should have made all the kids do it.
She shows a calendar with handprints and a poem that they made at Xmas and says that they charged £2 for it, says "well they were happy to do it when they were going to earn from it" says she was sobbing on Friday night, she was so upset she emailed them, says she spoke to four other parents and two got cards but two didn't so she told the school that other parents were upset too.
Says she might get a BB gun or air rifle or possibly a gun licence for her own protection, she keeps knives everywhere so she can grab one if someone tries to grab her. Shows her fancy torch thst Kath bought her and says she will put the link up so if anyone buys it she will earn money.
If someone gifts her money she has to declare it as income, FB add together subs, ads, and stars, take 30%then give her what's left but by the time it's converted from dollars to pounds and she's paid 20%tax it means she only gets half what she actually earns.
Goes on about Adrian and the money etc and again, she used to record conversations of him as proof, he told people she tried to stab him but she didn't, they were just joking around in the kitchen. Says how the mess up with the timing of the driving course triggered her ptsd because it was like him gaslighting her.
Someone asks what gaslighting is and she says she did loads of research about it but then struggles for several minutes to give examples of it!
She's still fighting to get her £25 back from the driving course, she will fight it for her own sanity. Sometimes she wonders if she is a narcissist, she's learnt so much about it, we all have traits but the fact she's aware and questioning it means that she isn't one!
Still rambles on about Adrian, how the wedding was all planned when he walked out on her, she had to ring and cancel everything and lost deposits...... But the wedding was a competition prize so how did she lose deposits??!
Claims he's still emailing her as she's talking, accusing her of sleeping with her ex.
Says she worries sometimes she overshares stuff and wonders if she should delete her lives but she's so honest and raw on her lives, she can't help but open up
Goes on about how everything was perfect to start but then he started to come out as the real him, she fell in love with the person he was pretending to be, it was all an act that he couldn't keep up, she would threaten to leave and he'd be lovely again so she would stay because there was hope.
At this point someone comments she should be a therapist and she says yes lots of people have said she should be a counsellor.
. She's an empath, always looks for reasons for people's behaviour, always gives people the benefit of the doubt!
When she gets trolls she's so strong as a person now she knows it's not true, she knows she's a good person.
There was a loads of rambling about how supportive the supporters group is and how they can all help each other etc
She's away next weekend so might not go live as she needs a break and to relax but may go live on the Saturday but no promises.
and a picture of a pig she made out of play dough, rivetting stuff.
