She has a short memory good old edgy... she wrote a blog post about how she recognised she was a shouty, yelling mum (she not the only one that has felt like that).
http://www.mrsmeldrum.com/2017/01/when-did-i-turn-into-this-person.html
She has always been hard on Safiyah and she knows it and she was a lot younger at this point in this blog post. She’s been snapping at her for so long now I don’t think she realise she is doing it, but the difference is she if filming some of it and people have an opinion as it is not just now and again.
Her rant about people speaking about her parenting is very much displaced or feeling guilty. I get her feeling offended, but anyone else would sit and have a think, because she knows she does it. It really grates on me saying a 4/5 year old has an attitude. (Mama life did the same the other week).
Sorry.. couldn't resist a little edit of the blog post above
"it's happened, something that I never thought would, it wasn’t overnight & I can’t pinpoint when it happened but I have turned into a shouty mum vlogger. Scrap that – a yelling mum vlogger.
I am at that point of exhaustion where yelling is coming all too easily, I’m fed up of the daily struggles of being transparent. The content has fallen by the wayside & the biggest questions have landed at the worst time. There attitude & back chat is out of control – but so is my yelling.
I yell on Instagram stories, I yell when I'm questioned, when I don't disclose ads, mostly I yell when I feel like no one’s listening to me.
I have started making bad choices, that sounds like I've starting hanging out down the park smoking weed with 16 year olds – obviously this is not the kind of bad decision I’m talking about. Bad choices day-to-day, persuading my followers to buy things, treating them badly, telling lies, taking things to far by threatening the police. These all seem like pretty minor things, but its constant , multiple times a day when I am constantly having to remind myself how to behave. ‘Ohh she’s just a mum’ I hear you say but it’s utterly exhausting. When will I learn, when will I start listening. I’m exhausted, I’m exhausted by my behaviour, I’m exhausted by the constant cleaning up of facts I have to put on IG, the constant reminders of how I should behave & the constant reminders of how my behaviour isn’t good enough – but mostly, mostly I’m exhausted by keeping up appearances. When did I turn to shouting, how did it even start?
I used to speak softly & be heard, have a technique in place & stick to it, calmly count to 3 before beciding not to utilising the ad hashtag. Now I just shout, I rarely count to 3 – its me who needs time out from ads, it’s me who needs to cool off & it’s me who needs to re-evaluate her behaviour.
I have just had a long chat with Lee about how I am stopping the shouting, I’m not doing it anymore, I need to hold my hands up & say enough is enough & be accountable for my shouty behaviour. I need to build up my energy, I need to work on my calming techniques & I need to build that patience back up that seems to have diminished.
This is me being accountable for my actions & I’m nipping the yelling in the bud."
