Her reaction to her son’s existence baffles me, and it’s made worse by her constant professions of love. You see a real glimpse of her true feelings when she’s caught off-guard, like on This Morning where the only thing she could say about him was that he’s naughty.
I think she has been coddled so much by everyone around her that she resents her son because she’s not the baby anymore. I think she can feel this and still love him, I don’t necessarily think it makes her a bad mother either, but you can tell that Ronnie has thrown her whole world upside down because he makes things difficult. She can’t do whatever she wants to do all the time (hard to believe because she still seems to do a lot of what she wants, but I expect it’s still not enough). He stops her home being insta-perfect (wtf was that about his toys being “all ready for him to destroy” tomorrow?!) He takes Jamie’s attention away from her. And I think she probably does have genuine anxiety about being a mother to Ronnie which is why she’s never alone with him, not because she can’t look after him but because she doesn’t think she can.
I think she really struggles with admitting when things are hard or when she’s unhappy, because she has such an obsession with perfection. No negativity allowed on her page. Only ever shows the good stuff. Has to constantly look perfect in her own appearance (full face of make up, fake nails etc). It’s such a shame because it stops her from being human. How the hell she presented such a front during those newborn months when everyone knows you feel like you were hit by a ten tonne truck that then reversed and smacked you again, repeatedly, I will never know.
The main reason she loves that dog so much is because, to him, she will always be perfect because that’s the magic of dogs.
I almost feel sorry for her. Then I remember she’s a cunt.
