Thank you for all your kind messages about opening up. It was a big deal to actually type the words lol, like admitting what a failure I've been. OCD is a horrible, horrible condition , that I wouldn't want to wish on anyone. Its a compulsive disorder, not oh I haven't cleaned my sink, I feel bad ~ what would people think of me? it a compulsion that you have to clean that sink or your children will die from germs - dramatic I know but when I'm at my worse that is my thought process.
My worry is that people who are slightly depressed or anxious are comparing themselves to a sales person who's unattainable standards are shown through stories that is just a day in her life. That's not normality. I, myself was comparing all day every day, thanking her profusely in messages for "helping" me. Might I just add I never got a reply. Almost like I needed her to validate my exsistence. How pathetic am I?
Luckily for me i had previous CBT therapy that made me look out for warning signs. But the doctors saying biohazard suits to me about the production of this product literally ripped my soul in half. How dare I spray these chemicals around my beautiful daughters. my handsome hubby or my dog??? I've been living with that guilt for a while. But then this woman, promotes this on the daily and these blind women are following her. Not their fault. Talking to my mum she said its almost like a cult. You have to fit in or get out kind of mentality.. Where will this stop? I have photos of my skin now , in recovery after switching to natural products, so much better. If any one would be interested in them I would be happy to send as my skin is still in bad condition, but slowly healing along with my guilt.
So any hinchers that would like to know more, then listen to these beautiful people. You don't need the latest cloth to validate your self . You are beautiful with out all the tit on the swipe ups. Believe me cults get closed for a reason and this one will end soon. And don't feel bad, feel anger that you have been sold too! And to my lovely tattlers, keep doing what you are doing and spread the word. There are people out there that will be enternally grateful , myself included. Anything i can do to help im willing, even if its going on record with my name to any articles etc xxx